Iâm not sure if sheâs talking about me or this Jamey person, but Agnes clears it up. âHeâll have to go to your house next, Iâm pretty sure.â
âNo, he wonât.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause he wonât, thatâs why.â
âIf youâre talking about paid work, I need the money so bad, Iâd actually consider going to your house,â I say under my breath. âBut thereâs no way in hell Iâm doing it for free. I donât care what the school says.â
Moira looks like sheâs turned to stone. Apparently, the comment wasnât as under my breath as I thought, and itâs pretty clear she canât believe the servant boy is daring to speak. Itâs beyond satisfying to leave her speechless for once. Itâs intoxicating, really.
âMaybe Iâll show up at your front door with my rake and my leaf bags just to piss you off,â I continue in a louder voice this time. âMan, Iâd love to see the look on yourââ
The comment is cut short by a red-hot pain shooting through my left butt cheek. Iâm so surprised that I instinctively drop the rake and grab my own ass, hard, with both hands.
The girls howl like a couple of coyotes circling in for the kill.
Doing my best to act casual, I release my grip on myself and look around, trying to figure out where the pain came from. Did somebody shoot me with a .22, a neighbor boy, maybe? Finally, my eyes rest on Agnes, whoâs doing a poor job of hiding what looks like a wrist rocketâtype slingshot inside her jacket. When I was little, my father tried to show me how to shoot birds out of trees with a weapon that looked just like it (of course, I kept missing the birds by âaccidentâ). Agnes gets up quickly from the step, not taking her eyes off me.
As I stand there shaking my head and glaring at them, the girls exchange grins before turning around and disappearing into the house. âShow up at my place and a slingshot will be the least of your worries,â Moira yells right before she slams the door.
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20
MOIRA
DAY 81: APRIL 5
Iâm standing in front of the bathroom mirror, practicing my death scowl. Iâm convinced itâs the thing that makes other people nervous enough to leave me alone. I donât care what they say behind my back. I assume the worst, and thatâs fine. It is what it is.
But this scowl? Itâs my armor. More than that, itâs my middle finger to the world, specifically to the world of high school and all the lame-ass cretins therein.
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21
AGNES
DAY 80: APRIL 6
âYou need to stay home today.â Moiraâs voice is hoarse at the other end of the phone line.
âIâm not sick,â I tell her.
âBut I am. I donât want you going to school without me. People are assholes. Sorryâjerks.â
âIâll be fine.â
âIâm serious, Agnes.â
âIâm serious, too. I have a geometry test.â
âYou didnât mention anything about a test yesterday.â
âSo now I have to tell you every detail of my academic life?â
The line goes silent.
âSorry,â I say. âI justââ
âNo worries.â Now Moiraâs voice is suddenly breezy.
âEmââ
âNope. Itâs fine. Youâll be fine.â
âI will be fine,â I tell her. âButââ
âHave a good day.â
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When our homeroom teacher, Mr. Jeffers, realizes Moiraâs absent, he asks me if I want him to call the front office so they can assign another escort to walk with me between classes.
âNo,â I tell him. âThatâs okay.â
Thereâs a late morning awards assembly for the fall sports teams. Everyoneâs jazzed up when itâs over, shoving one another toward the exits and creating a bottleneck of students at one end of the gym. I stay put in