thought he mustâve been kicked out, too, but Remus insisted heâd left because he realized he hadnât finished living his life in the outside world yet. He implied that heâd be able to walk back into Lumia at any point in time.â
âThis Remus guy, heâs not Keirâs assistant any longer.â
âNo.â A word so razor-edged the air bled. âRemus had no business being in a healerâs employ.â Coming to a standstill beside the greenhouse, Illium looked back toward the open doors to the library. âHe spent a lot of time with Aodhan while Aodhan was in the Medica. I was there, too, as were the others of us who were with Raphael at that time, as well as Raphael himself. My mother. His parents.â
He swallowed audibly. âI wouldâve lived at the Medica had Keir allowed itâI couldnât bear to have Aodhan out of my sight after what had happened.â Wings shifting restlessly, his fingers clenching down on hers again. âBut every so often, Remus would tell us that as a healerâs apprentice, he could see Aodhan was growing strained at the constant companionship, that he needed a little time to find his own peace. We didnât want to hurt himâwe
never
wanted to hurt himâso weâd leave.â
Hairs rose on the back of Elenaâs neck, an ugly feeling in her gut. âAnd this Remus dude would be alone with him?â
Illium nodded. âI came back early one day. I planned to sit outside Aodhanâs room until Remus said it was okay to go in again.â He broke their handclasp to spin away, a sound of raw rage erupting from his throat. âBut the door was partially open,â he said without turning back. âBecause it was, I went closer in case Remus had cleared visitors . . . and I heard someone whispering in there. It was Remus. He was telling Aodhan he was a broken doll and that broken dolls needed masters.â
Elenaâs eyes grew hot with fury. âBastard.â
âI didnât need to hear anything else. It was obvious Remus was using his position to abuse Aodhan, break down anything that remained inside him so Remus could âownâ him.â Rage and tears vied for space in Illiumâs voice. âEveryone wants to own Aodhan. Heâs a beautiful jewel and the world canât bear just to look at him and wonder at his beauty. They want to break him, cage him.â
âWhat did you do to Remus?â
âI threw him out of the room then proceeded to attempt to beat him to death,â Illium responded in a tone so cold it caused goose bumps over her skin. âI wouldâve succeeded if Aodhan hadnât spoken at last. It was so quiet, so soft, but I heard him. He said,
Bluebell
.â Illium blew out a harsh breath. âIt was like a gunshot going off inside my head. I dropped the bag of broken bones that was Remus and rushed into Aodhanâs roomââ
He cut off his words, as if the memory of that moment was too much to bear.
Shifting to stand beside him once more, Elena ran her hand gently over his wing, his feathers silky and warm under her palm. In profile, against the light of the greenhouse, he was a granite statue, his jaw clenched with agonizing force.
When he spoke, each word was a jagged chip of flint. âRemus was lying bleeding and broken outside when Raphael came. He didnât ask me anything at that time, just threw Remus in a treatment room and alerted Keir that one of his people needed his assistance.â
âHe knew you mustâve had good reason.â
âWhen I was finally calm enough to speak, after Aodhan fell into a natural sleep, I told him what Iâd overheard.â He thrust a hand through his hair. âTo this day, I donât know what Raphael said to Keir, but Remus was banished from the Medica for the duration of his immortal life. If heâs ever injured, he must wait outside and hope someone
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