as I can. I try to ignore the tingling on my arm from where our skin connected.
âOkay.â He grins, palms flat up in the air again. âThat sounds fun.â
Strangerâs Manifesto
Entry 9
I knew.
I freaking knew.
Not in my brain.
But somewhere deep in my bones.
I knew .
And I did nothing to stop it.
The shoulda-woulda of the guilt train
Reminds me
Every time I close my eyes.
Thatâs why I have to do something now.
Even if people hate me for it.
Implementing my plan is painfully easy,
Because there are perks
To being invisible.
No one feels the heat of my eyes watching
Or wonders what Iâm doing out of class.
No one sees me lurking by lockers.
So planting playing cards is a freaking piece of cake.
Iâve got to practically wave the clues under their noses.
Thatâs how stupid they are.
Or maybe just how
Inconsequential
I am.
14
MID-NOVEMBER
A-minus on the government test, 89.99 percent.
Eric moves past my desk after Mr. Thurber hands out the graded exams.
âSee?â he whispers. âI told you not to worry.â
âHowâd you do that?â
âMagic.â He winks. âI have my ways.â He slides into his own seat.
I shake my head and smile.
Eric follows me at passing period and corners me at my locker. âIf weâre study partners, I guarantee youâll ace all your government tests.â
âYeah?â I say, trying to pull the trash out of my locker. Iâve got to keep my grades up, at least until I get my acceptance letters. Then maybe I can let things slide. âWant to form a study group? If we invite Beth sheâll bring Oreos. Her mom buys them in bulk.â
âHow about just you and me?â
I look up, and Ericâs all shifty, like he just asked me out on a date or something.
Life is crazy. For seventeen years no guy has ever noticed me, and now all of a sudden Iâve got two who want to hang out? Mom might be a little more approving of a study-date kind of thing, and who could be more brilliant than Eric?
âI donât have much time,â I tell him.
âWell, you have to study, right?â
âGood point. I get home from clinic at seven thirty on Thursday. Want to come over then?â Mom wonât mind, I donât think. Sheâll be happy Iâm studying, and weâll sit at the kitchen table so there isnât any stress about bringing a boy into my room.
âSure,â he says, like this is what heâs been waiting for.
âMy momâs a health-food nut, so donât expect chips or candy. You like carrot sticks?â
He looks at me like Iâm kidding.
Mom is buzzing. Zipping around in the kitchen, hovering by the fridge, then organizing our junk drawer and fixing some snacks of veggies, hummus, and sliced triangles of whole-grain pita bread. âEric is such a focused young man.â The study date meets her standards, apparently. Mom has known Eric since junior yearâs academic decathlon, when he blew everyone away with his brilliance.
âYouâre not going to hang around here while we study, are you?â I ask her.
Mom says ânoâ so trigger-fast that I know sheâs lying.
âI am.â Chloe smirks. âShould be fun.â
âYou canât interrupt them, Chloe,â Mom warns, pretending like she wasnât planning to do exactly the same thing.
âI wonât interrupt them. Iâll study. You want me to study too, donât you, Mom?â
Mom is stuck. I can see her thinking through her answers, wondering how she can tell Chloe to stay away from us without insulting Chloeâs academic potential, and without implicitly condoning Eric and me spending time alone . So she just shrugs and says, âAs long as everyoneâs staying productive,â and continues buzzing around the room.
An hour later, Eric and I sit at the kitchen table, nearly elbow to elbow. âI thought you were