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feel I am rather through with men. Love of God will replace love of men, and actually I don’t feel I need a man. I don’t hate them or anything. I see men and sometimes I feel if I were to have a man I would like one like that. But I have no longings or crushes or anything. And yet maybe I’m always hoping, leaping to conclusions—what else is there to leap at except men. One keeps me in condition for another.
    I know it hasn’t all been beer and pretzels for you either.
    Lilli Lilli Lilli
    personal considerations
    sunburned psuedo virile types
    they get a girl all confused then leave her that way
    I have always been the goddess above it all, untouchable.
    I explain my influence over men as simply this. I represent to many men a goddess who is untouchable, and yet a goddess who needs him to make her happy. I was born to be a queen and every time I come down from the throne I am humiliated for it and suffer many indignities.
    This is my barbed wire dress. It protects the property but doesn’t hide the view.
    Money doesn’t buy everything but it does buy some nice goodies—
    He’s a very handsome man.
    I wouldn’t have anything else but.
    Welcome to the Ponderosa
    No, it’s the White House but the President is out demonstrating.
    Yes it is up to me. That’s kind of nice to say. It’s up to me.
    If you ever do progress to a higher level of human awareness, Stay there and do not ever come down. Think not to glorify the self but the great schemer. Seek no approval or applause from man.
    Where were you
    Him—out. Her—out where. Him—look just leave me alone—she slaps him they fight! He beats her she runs into bedroom falls on bed crying. After she’s all cried out she very composed gets up slowly very dignified and walks calmly out of the room.
    Dec.
    I just finished doing my hair. I bleached it this morning (again I didn’t leave it on long enough) and I used balsam and Roux white minx rinse. I’m going to let it dry partly and reapply it. Yesterday in the mail I received a letter and wind up toy from Kathy.
    There exists a whole subculture of people that are movie star oriented. There are many women who try to look like Elizabeth Taylor, Kim Novak, Veronica Lake, Jackie O.
    You shouldn’t look so disapproving, Lavinia. It makes you look older and age will come soon enough to destroy that pretty face. A thing of beauty cannot remain so forever.
    I’m a thousand different people. Every one is real.
    The Moments
    Love on a Two
    Way Street
    Mother,
    Will you wake me up before you leave?
    I need time. I’ve got to figure out what I am.
    Candy Darling Candy Darling
    Candy Darling
    the manner in which you
    answer the question and
    not the specific answer
    Broad road to destruction.
    Do not allow the mind to be affected
    by the world.
    Human nature motivated by sin.
    Opposition to God is bound to be punished
    Following Godly will cost you
    1. Repent      2. have faith      3. Obey
    Dear Niel,
    It was so nice to hear from you. I’m glad to see you are doing well. Everyone from Mervyn’s class is doing well. That’s because they are all so good (not as actors, as souls). Dana I know is in Japan giving the oriental populace a few thrills. Perhaps right now some suave Japanese man is showing Dana his junk. Some actors are so desperate to reach their goal that they never make it. I mean they reach their goal in the acting profession but never make it as people.
    Tell Maria I said hello. Has anyone else over there even heard of me? By the way, I am in Jan. & Feb. Photoplay , Dec. Esquire , Dec. Nova , and the March issue of Vogue ! I know I’m destined for stardom because when I walk along the street I sometimes see people staring at me and pointing. And the other day I overheard one woman saying to some man “I know where she belongs!” Also while uptown on a bus I had a tremendous black velvet