edge the kids back so we can get through and help him.
âHave you been a good girl?â he asks me.
âIsnât it Santa who asks that?â
âYouâre on the naughty list. Iâll deal with you later,â he says, stepping forward and shaking hands with the kids as they stand stunned. I try and wipe the goofy, lovey-dovey look off my face, but find it impossible. CeeCeeâs right: I had to kiss a toad before my knight in a bright pink bunny suit found my heart. I watch Charlie pick the foil off her egg slowly and delicately before popping it into her mouth, beaming.
***
âIt just ainât the same without Janey and Walt here,â CeeCee says sadly. Weâre up before the sun, hiding the eggs for the Easter egg hunt in shrubs along the streets of Ashford. Sarah and Damon are helping; theyâre further ahead, chatting as they walk on opposite sides of the street.
âI know,â I say softly. âFeels hollow without them.â
CeeCee goes to speak but chokes up. She takes a minute then says, âYou know, Lil, the only thing that matters in life is having good friends and family around you. When you get to the twilight of your life, like me, you realize that. Money, fancy clothes, none of that matters. When youâre sitting alone in the dark of night, the things that make your heart happy are simple. Charlieâs smile when she bit into that cake pop. You and me laughing ourselves silly every day. My grandbabies, my kids, who all done me proud. And Janey. Our friendshipâs spanned decades. There ainât a thing we donât know âbout each other, and that counts for more than anythinâ. I know she gonna pull through, I know it. But if she donât, it means that God got other plans for her, and, as sad as that be, I trust Him. And Iâll be ever grateful for havinâ a friend like Janey. Life doesnât always have a happy ending, and that makes it even more important to love and cherish what you got. So you just remember that, Lil, OK?â She wipes tears from her eyes, and nods at me before turning away and walking up the quiet street. Times like this I know she wants to be alone. Her words replay in my mind. I canât help but wonder what else she means.
My heartâs heavy as I walk the other way, placing eggs into the underbrush of plants that line the street. Things donât often change in Ashford, but it suddenly seems as though they will. The people I look up to and respect are all advancing in years, and I just canât picture my life without them. I try and shake the blues away. Everything is always sadder before the sun comes up. Picturing Janey and Walt about to face their biggest struggle puts the Joel fiasco into perspective. As CeeCee says, itâs only money. Once I pay him, Iâll never have to see him again, and thatâs worth more than anything. My friends need me now, and I need to be strong for them, not lost inside my mind with Joel, and his toxic threats.
***
Since Walt isnât here, Damon takes over as the egg-hunt organizer. He lines the kids up along a makeshift start line, painted hurriedly at daybreak, when we realized weâd forgotten.
âOK, does everyone have a basket?â he hollers above the excited chatter.
Their âyes sirsââ ring out high into the fresh morning air.
âGreat! Now we have a few little ones here today. Itâd be nice if the bigger kids buddy up and make sure they find just as many eggs as you.â
The line wobbles as the tweens move places to stand next to the younger kids to shadow them.
âOn your marks, get set, GO!â
We watch them race every which way, their yelps punctuating the morning.
CeeCee and I head on into the café, and get to making gingerbread coffee for the parents, who stumble in groggy from such an early start.
***
The kids have all moseyed on home as I close up shop for the day. CeeCee tallied up the