screw you. I want in. I work for what I make. I can get more like her. I can help you hide it. You need fresh money, new blood, or this all falls apart.â
At that Charlesâs eyes brightened just a little, and Ryan knew he had him, but Daria appeared in the doorway. Charles gave not a hint of acknowledgement, and Ryan thought of the recording device in his pocket, whirring away to capture nothing but his own windbag self.
âEnjoy yourselves,â Charles said to Daria when he reached the door, then he disappeared back down the hall.
âAre you all right?â Daria asked.
Ryan thumbed off the recorder. âWhy? Donât I look all right?â
âIâve seen deer in headlights who look less terrified than you.â
âItâs that bad?â
âNo. On the surface, you look like everyone else at this party. Iâm pretty good at looking underneath. Actors lie for a living. To stay sane you either believe everyoneâs fiction, or you learn to pick out the liars at twenty paces.â
âAnd you pick out the liars.â
She crossed the room, body swaying in the column of cream fabric, and stopped in front of him. He could smell good whiskey on her breath, see the sheen of expensive spa care on her shoulders and the upper curves of her breasts. âTruth is the only thing that matters. Telling it, hearing it, living it.â
Unbidden, an image of Simone in her jeans and a shirt open to reveal her throat rose in his mind. âGot any tricks for living the truth?â he asked.
Her lips curved, then she tipped her mouth up to his and kissed him.
The woman he wanted to try that particular trick with wasnât the woman standing in front of him. âLetâs donât and tell everyone we did,â he said.
She turned and locked the door. âLetâs do and tell everyone we didnât,â she said. Her palm glided along the fabric of his cummerbund, unconsciously mirroring Simoneâs challenge. Every straight man at the party would give his bonus check to have Dariaâs hand on his hip, and all Ryan could think of was how Simone had touched him the same way, purposefully, with intent, knowing exactly what she was doing, how it would affect him.
You canât have her. Focus on the woman at hand, on the task at hand.
His breath shallowed as Daria kept her eyes on his face and worked her hand into the layers of clothing at his waist. He cupped her nape with his palm, and massaged until her shoulders slumped with pleasure. âLetâs do whatever we goddamn feel like and tell everyone to fuck off.â
***
Even when he got called out of bed to meet a skittish whistleblower, Agent Logan looked like nothing would faze him. Dressed in jeans, sneakers, and an NYU T-shirt, he leaned against an SUV in the parking garage off Seventh Avenue and held a cup of street vendor coffee. Ryan had sent the audio file from the meeting to Loganâs cell and gotten a call five minutes later.
âItâs four in the morning,â Ryan said. He was so tired his eyes burned, and his skin had a grimy, sleep-deprived feel. âYou have some kind of special alert for my emails?â
âYes,â Logan said, completely serious. He sipped from the coffee and studied Ryan, his blue eyes calm but obviously searching for signs of drugs or liquor.
âIâm sober,â Ryan said resignedly. âI wish I wasnât, but I am. Do you have any idea how difficult it is not to get drunk in front of people who expect me to get drunk?â
âYou blew it,â the Jock said, but the creases lining the right side of his face ruined the in-your-face tone. He wore tracksuit bottoms and a T-shirt from a weight lifting competition. Ryan knew the type: never satisfied, never secure. Everything was a dick-measuring contest. âYou got us jack.â
âI didnât fucking blow it,â Ryan snapped. âThatâs how they are. You think this