to be.
But Mircalla made a sound of disgust and annoyance. She picked up the card, regarded it for a moment, and then flicked it away into the wind. The card swirled in a circle for a moment and then vanished.
âNot that card,â she said.
âWhy? Itâs mine.â
âYou need to pick a new card,â she said. âThat oneâs been used already.â
âI donât understand.â
She laughed again. âOf course you donât. Pick another card. Pick one that matters to your future.â
âMy future? But the death cardâ¦â
âHas already been played. Donât you know that?â She shook her head. âNo, you donât know it. I can see it in your face. You think you only dream about the dead. You think theyâre ghosts of a guilty conscience.â
âThey areââ
âOf course theyâre not,â snapped Mircalla. âThe dead follow you everywhere you go. You know it on a level too deep for your stupid mortal mind to realize, but itâs why you always move on. Itâs why youâre never content to stay anywhere. Itâs why you donât have friends. Not living ones, anyway.â She paused. âItâs why you donât love.â
âI loved someone onceâ¦â
âAnd she follows you, too, Greyson Torrance. Your Annabelle Sampson shambles along with the rest of them.â
âNo!â
âJust because you donât see her doesnât mean that she isnât there.â Mircalla cocked her head to one side. âYou never even look for her, do you?â
âSheâs buried in Pennsylvania. I dug her grave. I was there when they spoke the words over her to send her soul to heaven.â
Mircalla threw her head back and laughed.
âHeaven? Heaven? Is that where you think the dead go? To heaven to play harps and bask in the glory of an eternal God. Oh ⦠mortal man, you are such a fool. Like so many men I have known. Like so many men who still walk this earth. You go about with your guns and your strength and your certainty that the world is what you judge it to be, and all the time the world moves in different gears. You think you understand how the clockwork of the world operates, but you donât. Youâre like monkeys staring at a fine watch and thinking itâs magic made just for you.â
She turned, lifted the hem of her veil and spat into the dust. For a brief moment he saw her naked flesh. Chin and cheek and lips. And he recoiled from what he saw. They were not the smooth features of a beautiful woman. What he saw was withered and cracked, mottled like the skin of some ancient mummy. Mircalla dropped the veil and turned back to him.
âYou do not understand the world because you are afraid to know its truths,â she said. âLike so many men.â
âYouâre not making sense,â he protested.
âNo? Turn and look.â She gestured to the east and he turned with great reluctance. There, in the direction from which the cold wind blew, there were people. A mass of them, shuffling along, moving slowly. Pale faces and empty eyes.
He knew them.
He knew them so well. And she was there. Annabelle. With her torn dress and broken fingernails. Annabelle.
Oh God, Annabelle.
âThis is a dream,â he said.
âYes,â she agreed. âThis is a dream. But they are not.â
âWhat?â
âThe dead follow you, Grey Torrance. They have followed you since you caused their deaths, and they will follow you until you have nowhere else to run. And then they will claim you as one of their own. That is the truth of it. It is the truth you have been running from.â
âThatâs madness,â he snapped. âYouâre a witch and a whore and you drugged me. You slipped something into my beer.â
He remembered the pain in his neck and touched the spot. His fingers came away slick with fresh