out of the rain.â
After Pablo has gone back to his table, Dean leans forward and looks at me. âMiranda?â
âYes?â
âYou owe me two dollars for the greyhound.â
âI beg your pardon?â
âI said, youââ
âHow about a toast?â I raise my glass high. âTo structural analysis.â
âYeah.â
He drinks, but I merely brush the rim of my glass against my lips. Then heâs leaning forward again, and our elbows touch.
âOh,â I say, feeling strangely flustered. âI mean, I love your leather patches.â
âThanks.â
We fall silent, and suddenly I wish Iâd ordered Perrier. I pluck an ice cube from my drink and slip it into my mouth. âSo anyway.â The ice cube rattles against my teeth.
He sighs. âYeah?â
âHowâs everything?â
âOh, okay, I guess.â His voice is soft, moodier now. Impulsively I reach across the table and touch his throat.
He leans away, flashing me a startled look. âWhat was that for?â
âSorry.â I lace my fingers together in my lap. âItâs just a nervous tic.â
He lights a cigarette and inhales with a little whooshing noise. âI thought you were going for the jugular or something.â
âIâm sorry,â I say shrewishly. âIt wonât happen again.â
He coughs. âI was kidding. It was a joke.â
âOh.â Iâm trying to remember which movie actress Iâve just quoted. It would be nice if it was Katharine Hepburn, or even Barbara Stanwyck. Virginia Mayo, though, would be a drag. Jackson would know . Wincing a little, I brush my bangs out of my eyes.
ââand thatâs just the way I feel about it, Miranda.â
âMmm.â
He sighs again. âMiranda, Miranda.â
âYes, thatâs my name,â I say encouragingly, although I wish heâd stop pronouncing it with a soft a .
âEddie Hacker wants me to help him start a new humor magazine.â
I am silent for a moment. âIsnât the Lampoon more than enough already?â
âHe says the Lampoon snobbishness makes him sick.â
âMaybe heâs disappointed he didnât get in.â
âYeah, well.â Dean stubs out his cigarette in the ashtray. âHe wants me to be managing editor.â
âMy. You accepted, of course.â
He hesitates. âI told him I wanted to talk to Jennifer first.â
âDoes she sign your checks too?â
âSorry?â
âGo on.â
âWell, you know sheâs sort of my unofficial Advocate adviser.â Although only a junior, Deanâs long been considered a rising star on the Advocate staff. Thereâs talk he may be elected to an officerâs position before the semester is out. âShe understands politics better than I do.â
âIâm sure. And what did she tell you to do?â
âShe never really said. We ended up arguing.â
I try to keep my eyes from lighting up. âOh?â
âYeah, we were just sitting there talking about it calmly, and then Kevin comes in and wants to know if I got the message from you heâd tucked under my pillow.â
âWell, that was nice of him.â
âThen all of a sudden she starts going on and on about how working on Eddieâs magazine would probably make the board veto my series on F. Scott Fitzgerald, and fuck up my chances for making fiction editor next year.â
âWhy?â By the time Dean is or isnât fiction editor, I muse, Iâll have been out of college for a whole year.
âShe thinks it would be seen as a conflict of interest.â
âYou mean like spreading yourself too thin?â I smirk at him but heâs busy inhaling on his cigarette.
âExactly. But I think itâd look good on my résumé.â
âRésumé?â
âShe knows that Eddie and I prepped together.