but occupancy after the bombing has been so low that she secured a discount of fifty percent.
She kisses you on the cheek and observes you closely as she leads you to the restaurant. She notices, yes, that you are uncomfortable in your newly purchased and over-the-top attire, but also, conversely, that you are no longer uncomfortable in your own skin, there being something more mature about you, a sense of confidence, even of mastery, which you have added along with a few pounds and the odd fleck of gray. You seem to her properly a man, not a boy, although pleasingly your eyes have retained their animation, which of course she cannot know, even if she does suspect, owes a great deal to being at this moment in her presence.
You are seated by the headwaiter, who recognizes her and selects a table that maintains a pretense of being out of the way while ensuring she will be widely seen. He is rewarded with a nod from the pretty girl, and he unfolds your napkins personally, handing her hers with a slight bow, not presuming, as he does with yours, the right to place it in her lap.
âYou look good,â she says to you.
âSo do you.â
Indeed she does. As with the sun, you have always found it difficult to gaze upon her directly, but tonight you control your instinct to glance away, attempting instead to balance on that crumbly ledge between staring and shiftiness. What you see is a woman little changed by the years, not, obviously, because this is true, your first meeting having been half your lifetimes ago, but rather because your image of her is not entirely determined by her physical reality.
Tonight she wears a yellow spaghetti-strapped top that accents her collarbones and the knuckled indentation of her sternum, along with a single bangle of polished mahogany. A shawl covers the rim of her bag, and she reaches below it to retrieve a bottle of red wine, which she twists open with a sound like the snapping of a twig. You note a hint of uncertainty in her expression, and then it is gone.
âHave you been here before?â she asks.
âNo, itâs my first time.â
She smiles. âSo?â
âItâs unbelievable.â
âI remember my first time. The knives were so heavy, I thought they were silver. I stole one.â
âAre they really silver?â
She laughs. âNo.â
âWhat else have you seen like that, amazing things regular people donât get to see?â
She pauses, surprised by the stance of your question, the almost-forgotten, for her, terrain of wonder and lowliness it squats upon.
âSnow,â she says, grinning.
âYouâve seen snow?â
She nods. âIn the mountains. Itâs like magic. Like powdered hailstones.â
âLike whatâs inside a freezer.â
âWhen itâs on the ground. When itâs falling, itâs like feathers.â
âSoft?â
âSoft. But it gets wet. If you walk around in it, it hurts.â
You envision her sauntering through a white valley, a mansion in the distance. The headwaiter returns and ties a striped cloth around your bottle, discreetly hiding all but its neck from view.
âWhat about you?â she asks, refilling your glasses. âWhat is this business of yours, exactly?â
âBottled water.â
âYou deliver it?â
âThat too. I make it.â
âHow?â
You tell her, nonchalantly, omitting mention of the many wrinkles, such as incessant natural gas shortages or long periods when the water pressure is too low and your pump screams idly, unable to fill your storage tank.
âThatâs brilliant,â she says, shaking her head. âAnd people actually buy it? Just like you were one of the big companies?â
âJust like that.â
âYouâre a genius.â
âNo.â You smile.
âAt school everybody always said you were a genius.â
âYou werenât there often.â
âI went