staircase that led from the third floor into the attic. My heart fluttered as I reached the top stair. A tingling began in my left ankle.
Itâs probably just mice, I told myself. Or maybe a trapped squirrel. I prayed that was all it was. Even so, I wished Iâd brought one of Dadâs golf clubs or even my hot-glue gun.
Taking a deep breath, I peered into the atticâs large open space, ready to run. Ready to scream.
Instead I just shook my head.
The two elderly spirits were rummaging through boxes of Christmas ornaments. Theyâd opened cedar chests. Theyâd knocked over old, unwanted furniture.
Eleanor and Dwight. At it again.
I turned to go, then stopped in horror. Eleanor had rested her plump hands on a large, upright wardrobe trunk. Her shimmery fingers fumbled with the brass clasps. She was opening the trunk.
My motherâs trunk.
The trunk filled with her beautiful dresses.
The trunk filled with her smell.
The trunk that contained my small connection to her.
âNo way!â I cried. I ran at Eleanor, leaping over a stack of vinyl record albums. âThatâs mine!â
Eleanorâs tiny buttonlike eyes widened. She backed away.
I stood protectively in front of the trunk. Theyâd gone too far this time. âThis doesnât belong to you!â I cried.
Dwight glanced up, then returned to rummaging through a canvas bag of old beach toys.
âNone of this belongs to you,â I said. âYou canâtsnoop through other peopleâs stuff. What are you looking for?â
âWe donât know. But we canât stop,â Eleanor said pitifully. She turned to rifle through a pile of books. âWe know itâs here. Or somewhere.â
âHow will you know when you find it, if you donât know what youâre looking for?â I was getting frustrated.
They both stopped. âWeâll know. We will know because the anxiety will leave,â Dwight said.
âAnxiety?â I asked.
âWe both feel it. Like when you misplace your keys. Or forget your friendâs birthday,â Dwight explained. âWe know what weâre looking for, but we canât remember. We just know we need to find it.â
This was growing more confusing by the minute.
âSo you lost something? Maybe a key? Or a wallet? Was it a card in a wallet? Is it a photo?â I ran through a list of possibilities.
Dwight shook his head after each. Eleanor wrung her hands together.
I kept tossing out things they couldâve lost. Dwight stood by an old suitcase covered with travel stickers. He ran his hand over each one in a daze. His narrowshoulders slumped in distress. Eleanor wandered about. âWhere? Where?â she muttered.
I tapped my foot restlessly. My eyes darted from a broken vacuum to a one-armed doll to the dusty stack of faded board games. I was overcome by a desire to open every box in the attic. I wanted to find it too. I didnât know what it was, but I wanted to find it to calm my now jittery nerves.
I bit my lip. The spiritsâ emotions were seeping into my body. I couldnât let that happen. Whenever it did, it caused trouble and I felt sick. I had to separate myself.
I bolted down the stairs, leaving Dwight still touching the travel stickers and Eleanor peering under a mousetrap. I ran all the way to the first floor.
I felt bad for Eleanor and Dwight. I finally understood their helplessness. Their yearning.
I pushed aside the purple curtain. The spicy scent of Lady Azuraâs cinnamon candles greeted me.
âThe empress, the mighty one, has shown herself,â Lady Azura was saying. She bent forward in her armchair, peering at the tarot card lying faceup on the table. A woman in a flowered dress, with red hairswooped into a bun, sat across from her.
They both stared at me.
âWhat is wrong?â Lady Azura asked, alarmed.
âNothing, well, itâs not an emergency,â I fumbled. I wished I had