âLove is the great ruination of our species. Tennyson got it all wrong.â
âTennysonâ¦â
ââTis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved atall.ââ He gulped the rest of his drink, poured out another from the pitcher. âTennyson never got divorced.â
Elizabeth frowned at her martini. Everyone she knew whose marriage failed went through temporary insanity. People like her mother never recovered, to the degree where their ongoing misery became a point of pride. âBut he must have experienced some loss.â
âA friend of his died. Itâs not the same.â
âGrief is grief.â
He turned toward her, eyelids drooping slightly. âEver been dumped on your ass, Elizabeth?â
She rolled her eyes. He wanted her to feel guilty for not being in the club. âI hate suffering contests.â
âI didnât think so.â
She laughed. No, she hadnât been dumped on her ass. She always evolved out of relationships before the man did, was always ready first to move on to the next experience, the next adventure. Not therapy-textbook healthy, but she didnât know how to adjust wiring that ran so deep.
âBecause if you had been, youâd understand how much more peaceful and healthy it is to keep your pride and your heart intact, your sanity whole and vigorous, your faculties untarnished by the corrosion of anger, pain, jealousy, regret.â
âTherefore welcome to your nightmare. I get it.â
âWhatâs yours?â He quirked an eyebrow when she looked surprised. âCâmon. Everyone has one.â
âWellâ¦I guess mine got to be New York.â She drew her finger around the rim of the glass, but couldnât get it to sing for her. âSomewhere along the way I stopped existing. Or maybe I finally want to start.â
âSo youâre here to f-i-i-ind yourself.â
She grimaced at his TV-psychologist imitation. âYes, ew, cliché. But the shoe fits.â
âBoyfriend left behind?â
âHeâs in England.â
Again the eyebrow.
Elizabeth took a deep breath. âHe doesnât know Iâm here. Weâll put it that way.â
âYou ran away behind his back. Weâll put it that way.â
âYou ran away too.â She gestured to the sunlit mountains in the distance. âTo drink yourself into regular stupors.â
âI say go with your strengths.â
She grinned at him and blushed when he winked. The yard seemed suddenly warmer and smaller, lengthened shadows promising intimate darkness. Romance was not what she had come over for.
âThe radio said you left your job at Boston U?â She shook her head, answering her own divert-the-tension question. âNo, I must have misheard. You wouldnât quit.â
âYou think not?â
âIâd bet the rest of my gin.â She took another sip of the drink, which was going down more and more easily. âWork is your ultimate squirrel-proof bird feeder.â
He chuckled. âYouâre right. Iâm taking a sabbatical to escape my wifeâs very public humiliation and our therefore very public divorce. While Iâm here, Iâm writing a novel, every word of which is my own. The book will be published and sell twenty-one copies, ten to me, ten to Megan, one to Ella.â
âTwenty-two.â She waved her hand. âI want one.â
âAnd one to you.â He shoved his hand through his dark hair, rumpling it further. âInconceivable, how the reading public survives without my brilliance, but apparently it does.â
While the same public had gobbled up his wifeâs cheating. âSo make this an absolutely amazing book no one can put down. Itâll become a best seller, and on a book tour you can meet a sexy, brilliant woman and not only believe in love again but live happily ever after, while your ex-wife dines alone on her
J.A. Konrath, Jack Kilborn