nine.
âI should really get going on this essay,â I said.
âPlease?â She pouted. âIâm going out of my mindâI havenât talked to a single person today.â
The demerits for denying her this small courtesy would not be worth it in the long run. This is what chivalrous boyfriends did, and thatâs what I was becoming: a boyfriend who held doors, who insisted upon paying, who told her she looked nice before she went outâgrooming myself for the day I could extend this behavior to you.
âOkay, letâs go.â I clucked my tongue sympathetically. âPoor, sick Sara.â
Wandering the fluorescent aisles of CVS in search of zinc, Sara recapped the highlights of her most recent conversation with her grandmother. I pulled my phone a few inches out of my pocket: 8:48. Upon locating the medication, Sara studied the ingredient lists on two different packages, the now-familiar dimple forming on her forehead.
âThe question is, should I get the generic brand or the real kind?â she asked herself.
I pictured you standing outside Lamont, wondering where that loser from your class could be, who did he think he was.
âTheyâre the same exact ingredients, but I always feel like the real one is better,â she reasoned.
âGet the real one, then.â
She struggled to fit the small hole at the top of the generic bag over its metal peg. âIâll do it,â I said, taking it from her and hanging it up myself.
âWait.â She shook her head. âThis is silly. Theyâre the same, and the generic is cheaper.â
âFine.â I pulled it back off the peg. âIâll buy it for you,â I offered, to expedite the process, as I headed toward the checkout. An elderly woman monopolized the only cashier, paying with exact change, shakily counting aloud her nickels and pennies.
âDo you want to donate a dollar to pediatric cancer research?â the cashier asked when I paid.
âNo,â I said. âAnd I donât need a receipt.â
âWhatâs the hurry?â Sara asked as I raced outside.
âIâm eager to get back to this essay.â
âA few minutes isnât going to kill your motivation,â she said.
The peremptory orange hand of the pedestrian signal had just lit up and a few cars were approaching from down Mass Ave.
âYouâre right,â I said, putting my own hand on her lower back, resisting the urge to push her more forcefully. âLetâs cross.â
I guided her across the street. We had to break into a trot halfway to avoid being struck. It gave me a small rush.
âDavid!â Sara said when we made it to the curb. âWe almost got hit!â
âWe were fine,â I said.
We drew up to Matthews at two minutes to nine. If you were leaving from there at an appropriate time, you might see us and, thinking it was no big deal, tell Sara what we were up to.
âFeel better,â I said. âIâll talk to you tomorrow.â
âIâll walk you over. Lamont, right?â
Widener closed in an hour, which she knew, so I couldnâtreasonably pretend I was going there and then wait until she left. âYou donât need to walk me.â
âI donât mind.â
âYou really shouldnât be out in the cold if youâre sick.â
The entryway door opened and my throat closed. But it was just a student from China Iâd seen around the dorm.
âYou know thatâs a myth,â said Sara. âItâs because people are inside more during cold weather that germs spread. So, really, I should avoid the indoors.â
âLook, I donât want to catch your cold,â I said, more brusquely than Iâd intended. âSorry, I didnât mean to snap. But Iâm afraid of getting sick when I have a big night ahead of me.â
âNo, I get it,â she said.
âGet some sleep,â I told