Losing Him by Jennifer Foor Page B

given up. You wouldn’t have Jacob if you had ended things there.” I hated hearing her say she didn’t want to live. Her story was breaking my heart. I understood how a perfectly normal girl could lose her mind over such circumstances. It was horrible.
    She nodded. “True, but I also would have saved a lot of people from suffering had I died. That night set everything into motion. My fear of losing him.”
     
     

Chapter 11
    Heather
    I could see that Jessie was feeling sorry for me. That’s not the reason that I wanted him to know the story. I just wanted him to know that I wasn’t always the evil bitch that I had become. He needed to know that I once had a huge heart. I just chose to give it to the wrong guy.
    “Jessie, I will never forget loving you. What I feel for you is so much more than I ever felt for Ty. My love for him was based on desperation. Being with you is different. You make me feel whole. I’ve never had that before.”
    He reached over and touched my hand. “I feel the same way. I knew it was real. Nobody had ever made me so crazy. I knew it had to be my dumb ass falling for you.”
    Jessie looked right into my eyes. Wanting Ty to love me felt like such a long time ago. Jessie was real and he was slipping though my fingers. “Do you want me to continue tonight? We can talk more tomorrow?”
    “I’m wide awake.”
    “Fine.” I felt defeated. If he’d only give me more time, maybe I could feel his arms around me one last time. “While Ty was in the accident, I did everything I could to claim him as being with me. Then Colt came to town. All of the sudden, Van was spending less time at the hospital and more time in the arms of Ty’s cousin. I finally felt like I had a chance, if only he’d wake up. Then he did.”
    “So she was already with his cousin? That’s crazy. Didn’t they know how pissed he would be? I’d kill my cousin if he fucked my girlfriend.”
    “Technically, they were broken up. It didn’t matter. The moment he woke up, she was by his side acting like nothing had happened. When he finally was released to go home, his parents threw a party for him. That night he asked her to marry him. I was so sick to my stomach. After all that time, after her being with someone else, he still wanted her over me. Then about an hour later, she disappeared and he was all over me, thanks to pain pills and a few shots of liquor. All along I thought the marriage wasn’t going to happen. I think it was the next night that the truth came out. I got a call from Ty saying that he’d just caught Van and his cousin fucking in his truck. He was torn up over it. I will never forget the things he was saying about the both of them.”
    “So were you an official item after that?”
    I shook my head again. “Nope. We hooked up, but he was too upset to talk about a relationship. I wanted to give him time. He needed to get over her, so I could have him forever, so I thought.”
    “Obviously, that didn’t work out for you.” He chuckled.
    I laughed, but was terrified of the next part coming out. “He ended up going to Kentucky with Van. When he finally came back, he’d changed. He was cold and didn’t act like I meant anything to him. We’d still hook up, but he barely participated. He was just going through the motions.”
    “What happened in Kentucky?”
    “I have no idea. He never told me. I’d been over a couple times and heard him talking to his cousin, or whom I thought was his cousin. It was Miranda.”
    “Wait? He said she was his cousin?”
    I had to laugh. It was too hard for me to understand at first. “She is Colt’s cousin on his Mom’s side. Ty and Colt and related through their fathers, so Miranda has no relation to Ty.”
    “Still seems fucked up!”
    “Yeah. Anyways, after nearly a year of being just a fuck buddy, I decided to take things into my own hands again. I thought that if I gave him something he wanted, he would wake up. So, I got my roommate to agree to a