hands.
âOh, sorry. Look, I havenât definitely accepted the appointment, you know.â He ran a hand down the back of his neck. âIf you truly would rather notââ
âAlan, Iâve never even seen the place. Iâm certainly not going to say I wonât go just because Iâm scared stiff of the whole idea. And anyway, I donât want you to base your decision on myâmy cowardice. You go ahead and go, and decide whether itâs something you want to get into. Maybe next weekend I can visit There must be an inn or something within spitting distance.â
He grinned. âYes, Iâm sure we can find suitable accommodation somewhere, and a visit would be an excellent idea. I think youâll like the house when you see it. But you do understand that I donât require self-immolation from my bride. If you donât want to live there, I shanât take the post, and thatâs flat.â
âYes, well, weâll see then.â But I went to bed determined not to let my feelings show again. I was not about to make his career decisions for him, and this was an important step. Anyway, it was a temporary position, and surely I could stand anything for a few months.
There was little fuss about Alanâs departure. His years as a widower had taught him to fend for himself, so he packed neatly and methodically, arranged matters at the office to run without him for a little while, and had Police Constable Carter call for him very early Wednesday morning.
I had, of course, ignored his injunction not to see him off, but by the time I struggled out of bed and stumbled downstairs he had brewed his own coffee, boiled an egg, and made toast. I sat at the kitchen table feeling useless. Once we had commented that it looked like turning into a fine day for the run to Hampshire, there seemed little to say. Alanâs mind was plainly on the days ahead, and it was something of a relief when he gathered up his luggage, gave me an absentminded kiss, and was gone.
âHe didnât have to leave so early,â I said resentfully to Samantha, who sat in the kitchen, her blue Siamese eyes following my every move. âItâs only sixty miles or so. Well, maybe eighty, the way your stupid English roads run. And thereâs no point in thinking, miss, that just because Iâm up youâre going to get an early breakfast. Iâm headed back to bed.â
I closed the bedroom door to keep out the cats, who persist in thinking that the first sign of human activity, at no matter what hour of the morning, means food. It was only six, and pitch dark, and I had no intention of doing anything useful for hours.
But I couldnât sleep. It wasnât just the steady stream of high-pitched complaint from Sam, joined now and then by deeper wails from Emmy, my big British Blue, who also beat a tattoo on the door with well-practiced front paws. Iâm used to ignoring feline impatience, and earplugs are a great boon. No, it was my own restlessness that kept me awake and tossing until the stars began to lose their brilliance and the eastern sky to take on a pearly luminescence. The cats had long since given up and gone back to sleep themselves, but I lay amidst rumpled bedclothes and worried.
Part of me hoped that Alan would find Bramshill unattractive, and would come home determined not to accept the job. He didnât, after all, enjoy administration all that much. He looked back nostalgically to the days when he was, as he put it, a real policeman, actively involved in solving crimes. This job would be pure administration, with not a crime in sight.
It would also, the other part of me argued, be a real plum, the capstone to a distinguished career, Alanâs crowning achievement. He might even be knighted; it was not an unknown honor for absolutely brilliant policemen, and it would be well-deserved.
Good grief! Was I ready to be Lady Something-or-other? I didnât even