finger in the glass and roll the ice cubes around. I ignore Dad, who I know is watching me.
âDelicious,â he says. When he takes another big mouthful, his Adamâs apple bobs up and down.
âSo, how will we get on, you and I?â asks Miss Stella.
I shrug.
Beats me
, is what I want to say.
This wasnât MY idea
.
When I shrug again, Miss Stella rolls her eyes. Just like my friend Parveen does when one of her brothers does something stupid.
Miss Stella does it so quickly, maybe I imagined it.
CHAPTER 3
Counting Stars
At bedtime, Dad rolls me in my sheet like a mummy. I like it this way since we learned about Egyptians at the museum.
I shut my eyes and take my arms out of the bedroll and lay them down along my body. I try to imagine my spirit moving into the next world.
âAll I ask is that you cooperate,â says Dad. I ignore him.
âWhen school ends we can make other arrangements,â he says.
Iâm not saying anything.
âWe will visit your mother in a couple of weeks and figure things out then.â
My eyes pop open without my wanting them to. âWill she be better in two weeks?â
Dad picks up one of my hands and flaps it between his two big ones like a piece of pizza dough. âI hope so, Tansy. Meanwhile, you know your grandpa will take care of her.â
âI could have stayed at Grandpaâs too. I like it there.â
âI know you do. And you have been a little trouper. But you need to be here for school.â
âIt will be over soon.â
âSoon enough,â he says in a voice that means the end of the conversation. He lets my hand drop back onto the bed. âWe will make our summer plans in a week or so. Meanwhile, you have sports day to look forward to.â He gets up and picks my Harry Potter book from the shelf beside my bed. âAnd it will take you the rest of the school year to read this. Better put in some time now.â
He bends down and touches my face, then kisses me. His breath smells of Roy Bus tea, which wasnât tea at all. You wonât catch me drinking that red stuff.
âI want a butterfly kiss,â I tell him. Butterfly kisses are really for little kids. But Dad rests his face against mine and brushes my cheek with his eyelashes.
Then I do it to him.
When he has gone, I stare at the stars on my ceiling and wonder which ones Mom is looking at on the Sunshine Coast.
We took Mom over to Grandpaâs on the ferry yesterday. Every night when weâre visiting him, we sit down by the dock in gray splintery chairs with our hands resting on the flat armrests. As we count stars, I smell the smoke from Grandpaâs cigarette and listen to the water
shush shushing
against the beach.
Last night before we came home, Dad and Grandpa talked baseball and stuff while it got dark and inky out on the water. I listened to Mom crying as we both stared up at the stars shining like glitter in the sky.
I sat with my hand touching Momâs. Suddenly one of her fingers crept onto mine, stroking them over and over and over while she cried.
Dad says her depression makes Mom cry all the time. It is an invisible disease that feels even worse than when my hamster died and I thought I would miss him forever. Depression is more than being sad, Dad says. And it is not catching and is not my fault.
But sometimes I wish she would just get over it. Then I feel really bad.
For now, my grandpa will take care of Mom while Dad and I take care of business at home. Grandpa says that she can sit in the chair on the beach and look at the water and the stars. He says he will give her three square meals a day, and she wonât have to lift a finger.
He told us that every night after he has put Mom to bed, he will call to let us know how sheâs doing. So now I try and stay awake by counting the stars on my ceiling, waiting for the phone to ring.
CHAPTER 4
The Nut-Free Zone
Next morning I ask Dad what Grandpa said when he