thought. And people had worshiped at lesser shrines.
âThat doesnât matter,â Faith said. âI realize that. If Willings killed himâbut I donât think he did. I think I know who may have andââ
It had happened before, and Pam had grown rather tired of it. For all her growing sympathy forâcall it empathy withâFaith Constable, Pam felt irritation stirring. If people had things to tell the policeâ
âPlease,â Faith said. It occurred to Pam that her own face, also, probably was expressive. âYes, there is something I want the police to hear about. It may be nothing. They may already know. And, itâs quite true I donât want to go to them.â She watched Pamâs face; evidently saw something in it almost before Pam had herself caught up.
âPart of itâs the bad publicity,â Faith said. âI donât deny it. I donât want âActress Grilled in Ex-Husbandâs Murder.â Or however theyâd put it. I donât want that at all. Thatâs cowardly selfish, so all right itâs cowardly selfish. And if I have to, in the end, all right, I have to in the end. Butâthereâs more. Iââ
âListen, darlings,â Alice Draycroft said. âDo we have another drink? Or do we have lunch? Orâwhat I mean is, darlings, howâs to take five?â
Faith Constable looked at her friend, and fellow actress, somewhat as if she had never seen her before. After a moment, she smiled a little vaguely, as if she had come back from a great distance to surroundings only a little familiar, and said, âAll right, dear. Perhaps we should.â Alice Draycroft looked over her shoulder and a waiter said, âYes, Miss Draycroft?â and she made a circling movement with the index finger of her right hand. The waiter said, âYes, Miss Draycroft,â and went. Faith, very carefully, fitted a cigarette into a holder; very carefully lighted the cigarette and sat, looking at the lighter flame for seconds before she snapped the lighter shut. It occurred to Pam that she was looking, not at the tiny flame, but far back to where she had been, been brought back from. The waiter came with drinks. Faith sipped from her glass, and did not look at either of the othersâlooked at nothing.
âI was very young twenty-five years agoâno, it was twenty-six,â Faith said and only after she had said that looked at Pam North again. âThe story of my life,â she said. âMore than youâd asked for. Not all of it.â She smiled at Pam, and there was a certain apology in her smile. âI was younger than I should have been, of course. I wasnât really so very young. Not as years go.â
She paused again. After a moment, as abruptly as before, she began again.
âI was just realizing,â she said, âthat I wasnât going to be a writer. Iâd wanted very much to be a writer, and not nearly so much to act. But it turned out I could act and couldnât write. I suppose thatâs why Iâve always been a littleâ that wayâa little hippedâabout writers. I suppose that was why I married him in the first place.â She paused again. The pausingâbetween ideas, now and then between words, was, Pam thought, a part of artistry, of a craft which had, in turn, become part of Faith Constable. âIâm talking about Tony,â Faith said. âHe was a real writerâanyway, he thought he was, persuaded me he was.
âWe were only married a couple of years,â she said. âIâve always said that I was the one who decided to call it quits. That was true. Butâonly partly true. He wasnât a very nice person, poor Tony. I wasnât nearly so young after a year of itâold enough to notice how very un-nice he was. But that wasnât all.â Once more she paused. She took a breath. (How many times, Pam thought, must