No Sanctuary by Richard Laymon Page A

how come nobody’s bought the place. And there’s the writing. Dad said she’d written weird shit everywhere—all over the walls and ceilings. With a marking pen. You can’t just paint over a marking pen, it comes right through the paint. So even if they could get rid of the stink ...”
    “What sort of stuff did she write?”
    John shrugged. “Who knows? Weird shit. She was cracked.”
    “Didn’t anybody read it?”
    “I don’t know. Dad didn’t. I mean, the place reeked. He didn’t stick around any longer than he had to.”
    “I wonder what she wrote,” Gillian said.
    Grinning, John said, “Why don’t you go in and find out?”
    “Sure thing,” Gillian said. “You think I’m nuts?”
     
    It was a Friday. Before her parents went to bed, Gillian told them she would be staying up late to watch TV. It was not exactly a lie. At that time, intrigued as she was about the writing Mabel Brookhurst had left on the walls and ceilings before hanging herself, she doubted that she actually had the courage to sneak over to the old house for a look.
    After an hour of staring at the television movie, wondering about the Brookhurst house and trembling, she made up her mind. She left the TV on with its volume low. She turned on the light in the downstairs bathroom and shut the door to make it appear that she was inside—just in case one of her parents should come downstairs and wonder why she wasn’t in front of the television.
    In her bedroom, she changed from her nightgown into jeans, a chamois shirt and sneakers. She picked up her Polaroid camera and tiptoed downstairs and out of the house. In the garage, she found her father’s flashlight and a screwdriver.
    The walk to the Brookhurst house took no more than ten minutes. She stopped in front of it. Her mouth was dry, her heart thudding. She felt the wind under her shirt-tail, chilling her back.
    Lights were on in some nearby houses, but she saw no one.
    And no one sees me, she thought.
    The Brookhurst house looked dismal. The weeds in front shifted and crackled in the wind. One of the front windows was broken, a star of blackness on the reflecting sheen of its pane.
    I must be nuts, Gillian thought. I’m not going in there.
    She walked past the crooked gate and kept on walking, and felt her fear slide away.
    I’ll just go back home and forget it. Nobody will ever know. It was a stupid idea.
    Instead of relief, Gillian felt a sense of letdown.
    What’s the worst thing that could happen if I did go inside, she asked herself. The cops might get me. Can’t be much of a crime, sneaking into an abandoned house. They’d take me home. I’d have some explaining to do, but Mom and Dad are okay. They’d think it was a weird move, but ...
    What’s really the worst thing that could happen?
    I’m not, for godsake, going to meet Mabel’s ghost.
    The worst thing, she finally decided, would be to sneak in and get herself nailed by some kind of creep or pervert. A deserted, run-down place like that, anybody might be staying there.
    She began to feel the fear again. This time, she recognized that part of it, at least, was excitement.
    Just watch your step, she thought, and get the hell out if there’s any sign the place is occupied.
    Gillian had already reached the corner of the block. She turned back. On her way toward the Brookhurst house, she watched the neighboring homes. Most of the draperies in the lighted windows were shut. Someone might be peering out a dark window, but she was willing to take the chance. If the cops grabbed her, too bad, but so what? A little embarrassment. She could live with that.
    She swung open the gate and ran through the weeds to the side of the house. Ducking around the corner, she leaned against the wall and tried to calm down. For a few moments, she couldn’t get enough air. This seemed strange to Gillian. She was in good shape; running such a short distance shouldn’t have winded her at all. It had to be nerves.
    Soon she was breathing