my problems. I would pretend to be ill. Of course!
âIâve got a headache and I just feelâ¦kind of weakâ¦â
âOh, Nicole! You poor thing!â said Izzy, putting her arm round me. âShall I pour you some water?â
âShall we tell Matron?â asked Sasha quietly.
âI canât eat any more,â I said in a thin voice.
âDo you want me and Izzy to take you back to Forest Ash,â said Sasha, her big eyes full of concern.
âI think I need to go and lie down, but donât worry, I can manage to walk back on my own. Iâll just go slowly.â
âAre you sure?â asked Izzy.
âYes, Iâll be fine,â I said.
âYou can ask Matron for some paracetamol,â said Bryony.
âAnd then you can have a nice sleep and wake up on top of the world and ready for a fab party!â said Emily.
âYes, you donât want to miss the party!â said Izzy, looking suddenly shocked. âAre you sure youâll be okay?â she checked one last time.
I nodded and got up slowly. âCan someone take my plate?â
âI will,â came a chorus of voices.
I walked back to Forest Ash feeling a whole mixture of emotions. I was relieved that I was probably going to be able to get out of the party if I kept up my act, but I was upset about the lie. I was touched at the way my friends had been so kind and caring just now, but I was still angry with Antonia for being so rude last night.
When I went into Forest Ash, the first person I saw was Mrs. Pridham.
âOh, that was a quick lunch, Nicole! You canât have been very hungry.â
My heart raced. âIâ¦Iâm not feeling well.â
Her eyes filled with concern as she put a hand on my shoulder and looked at me carefully. âOh dear, what is it?â
âMy head⦠And my legs feel weak.â
âOh no! What bad timing!â She smiled at me and squeezed my shoulder. âMatronâs actually off duty at the moment, but sheâll be back in about an hour and Iâll send her along to you. Would you like to have a lie down till then? I think thatâd be best.â
I nodded.
âCome along then.â She steered me towards the stairs, but I didnât want her coming with me. I couldnât keep up the pretence of being ill, and anyway, it made me feel too guilty.
âIâll be okay,â I said.
âWell, if youâre sure⦠I should take your shoes off and get right under the duvet â then youâll probably fall asleep, and who knows, youâll hopefully wake up refreshed and ready to party!â She gave me an encouraging smile and I tried to smile back, but I donât think it worked, and I could feel her eyes on me as I started to climb the stairs.
By the time I was outside our dorm I was exhausted with the effort of pretending to be ill just in case Mrs. Pridham was still watching, and I thought how nice it would be to get under the duvet and curl up and see if I could get to sleep. Then I wouldnât have to talk to anyone and Iâd even miss out on the party preparations. I didnât really want Matron taking my temperature or anything though, because I knew it would be normal, and then all the house staff would try to chivvy me along and I bet theyâd tell me the party would do me good and it would cheer me up and things like that, when they had no idea how wrong theyâd be.
I pushed open the dorm door and immediately had a massive shock. Antonia was lying perfectly still on her bed, staring up at the ceiling.
Chapter Eight
A small â Oh â sound came out of my mouth.
She didnât even glance in my direction.
I had no idea what to do or say, especially as I knew that whatever I said she would probably ignore. I wondered if she knew it was me just from my little oh. I felt stupid standing completely still, but it would be a bit embarrassing getting under my bedclothes when