your gym teacher while you were at school today. The Holy Spirit just moved me to do it,â Grandma told me while I was trying to clean the mess of my clothes and Destiny Loveâs toys in my room. âMr. Richard Hendricks. His private number wasnât listed, so I called him at Carver.â
âW-w-why, Grandma?â I asked through a stutter.
âItâs only right, Noah,â she answered, short.
It took me a few minutes to get up the nerve to say what was really on my mind. But when I finally did, I let the words fly out fast so they wouldnât fall flat on my tongue.
âDonât it feel wrong to you that a racist from Hillsboroââcause I know thatâs what he isâsaved you?â
âIs that whatâs been eating at your insides?â she said.
âNoah, no matter what the world puts on us, or what we put on other folks, weâre all Godâs children. Black or white, or any color in the rainbow.â
âHendricks is just like those kids who split my skull with that bat,â I said, charged up. âHeâs no better.â
âNoah, youâve every right to be angry. But donât let it consume you. A life is measured by the impact it has on others. I pray that one day youâll find a way to take what happened to you and shine a light on it for people to see,â Grandma said. âI hate lots of things Iâve seen and fought against them all my life. And I wouldnât want to be standing in some folksâ shoes on the Judgment Day. But itâs not up to you or me to do the judging. Thatâs for God to do. I suppose when thereâs no hope left for any of us, there wonât be the grace of another flood. Heâll send his fire next time to burn this world clean.â
âI guess,â I said, frustrated.
âAll I got at your school was an answering machine. I left a message, but I know those things have a way of getting lost in a busy building like that,â Grandma said, handing me a sealed envelope. âI want you to deliver this letter to Mr. Hendricks for me. Just to make sure he knows my feelings.â
That night, and on the way to school the next morning, I thought about opening that envelope and reading Grandmaâs letter. I was worried that she was going to give Hendricks the kind of props he didnât deserve, and let him off the hook for looking down on anybody who wasnât white. Then that smug grin on his face would be set in stone forever.
Grandma had always been hard as nails against his kind. So I couldnât figure it.
I wasnât sold on everything sheâd said straight off, either. I wasnât happy about leaving the judging to anybody else. Iâd already seen too many big-time haters on the news get off with a puny slap on the wrist.
So maybe God wasnât watching all the time.
I didnât know if Grandma had gone soft from being so close to dying. I just knew that growing up sheâd seen racist things go down a hundred times worse than I ever did.
Deep down, I had too much respect for Grandma to read her private feelings.
But I couldnât bring myself to put that letter into Hendricksâs hand. So I shoved it into his mailbox inside the main office and walked as far away from it as I could.
That same day, there was a fight in the cafeteria maybe two minutes before I got there. I stepped inside and half the kids were standing in a wide circle watching security get whoever was fighting pinned down and under control.
The circle was mostly white on one side and black on the other.
It reminded me of that Chinese symbolâthe yin and yangâIâd seen in martial-arts movies.
Suddenly I heard Asaâs angry voice hollering, âHeâs a racist! Ainât nobody can tell me different, and Iâd slap his ass again for what he said!â
It was Asa whoâd been fighting, and I watched as security led him through the crowd with