Rush by Eve Silver Page B

are her parents, one with a small white dog. There’s no doubt I found the right person, but the words above the pictures are wrong: Richelle Kirkman’s Memorial Page .
    I scan down, frantic.
    In celebration of Richelle’s life . . .
    Miss you, Rich. xox
    Thinking about Richelle while I study for finals . . .
    There’s post after post from her friends and family and even people who say they never met her but knew someone who knew someone who knew her.
    And there’s a post with a brief article from the local paper, outlining the circumstances of her death. I scan it, then go back and read it in more detail. She fell to her death trying to save a little boy who’d climbed out on her neighbor’s roof. She managed to save him but not herself. I stare at it. Read it again. Two things jump out at me: the fact that Richelle was on a roof when she was scared of heights and the date of her death.
    “No.” I don’t understand. According to this page, Richelle died more than seven months ago. “No,” I say again, louder. It’s not possible that she’s been dead all that time. It’s not possible that she’s dead at all. We were healed. Luka and I . . . we came back healed. That’s what’s supposed to happen when we get pulled back from the mission. Luka and Richelle said so.
    But Richelle’s dead. Has been for seven months.
    This can’t be right.
    I open a new tab and search the word respawn. To generate or give rise to an entity or player after its death or destruction in the game .
    Luka and I regenerated; we came back with nothing more than a couple of scrapes. And Luka said he’s been part of the game for over a year, getting pulled again and again. He’d been hurt and healed again and again. I was hurt and healed. We got hit by the truck; we respawned in the lobby. We were shot by the Drau; we respawned in real life. But every gash and break and scrape disappeared when we came back.
    It isn’t a game. It’s a nightmare.
    I close that tab and return to Richelle’s page. It makes no sense. Richelle can’t have been dead for— I look at the page and check the dates again.
    How can she have been dead for seven months when I just saw her Friday? I talked to her. Laughed with her.
    My recollections writhe and twist. The bracelet’s your con. The color’s your health. Don’t let it turn red .
    Red.
    Images flash through my thoughts like a strobe light: The truck’s bumper, stained with cherry-juice smears. Blood on the ground. Blood on Luka’s broken arm. Blood staining my jeans dark crimson.
    I wrap my arms around myself, trying to hold it together as I remember Luka’s look of horror when my con turned orange. And right before we got pulled back, Richelle’s screen was red. I saw it. We all saw it. They knew what it meant, but I didn’t. Oh God, I didn’t know.
    Richelle is dead. She’s not coming back.
    With a moan, I lower my head and press the sides of my balled fists against my forehead. My eyes sting. My throat feels thick.
    I thought it was a game. Luka called it that. I know he did. Tyrone treated it like one. Richelle said he wants to sell the rights. . . .
    But Jackson said it was no game. He said it was real, and that what we did determined our survival. I thought he was crazy. I wanted to think he was crazy.
    I’m shaking as I grab my phone. No more texts. No more evasions. I call Luka’s number and when it goes to voice mail, I start to babble, “She’s gone. Oh my God, she’s gone. She’s dead. For real dead. As in dead . I need to talk to you. Please, Luka. I need to talk to you.”
    I hang up and pace the length of my room as I dial his number again, my hands shaking. My stomach churns and rolls.
    Voice mail again. My babbling is even less coherent the second time. And by the third, I’m not even talking, just breathing hard, willing Luka to answer.
    Panting, I stare at my phone. I want to call Carly. I need to call Carly. But I don’t dare drag her into this. I can’t