Silken Desires by Laci Paige Page A

How could you involve him in
my personal life? You had no right. You know how I feel about
keeping those two parts of my life separate. I didn’t want anyone
to know.” Her strong voice gave nothing away, but Roxi plopped down
on the bed looking exhausted.
    Jonathan remained where he was. “You hit
rock bottom, I didn’t know what to do. I panicked, and he has the
experience. I actually learned a lot from him. It wasn’t a mistake
or a bad thing, and I’d call him again, too.”
    “Like hell you will!” She grabbed a
hairbrush from the nightstand and threw it across the room.
    “If I don’t have a backup, then I can’t do
this. I thought I could, but this isn’t what I signed up for.” He
shook his head keeping his sight on her.
    “What exactly did you sign up for?” Her
words softened.
    “To take care of you, Rox. You need someone,
I want to be that someone, but not if I can’t get help when I need
it. I’m out of my league here. You aren’t the same woman that left
last year. You’ve changed into someone different, someone I don’t
recognize anymore. It’s only fair you give me the time to adjust,
and the means to educate myself for your benefit. Don’t you think?”
He walked slowly over to the bed and sat at the far end from
her.
    When she didn’t move or speak, he inched
over to be closer and took her hand in his. “I care about you so
much, Roxi. I’d do just about anything for you, but that scene…so
intense. I’ve never been a part of anything remotely like that.
Sure, I’ve whipped others, but not as hard as you needed it. That
was the heaviest corporal scene I’ve ever participated in.”
    “Would you be able to do it again?” Roxi
asked, quietly.
    “Honestly? I—I don’t know.” He ran a hand
down the back of his neck. “How often did you need it with your
last Master?” He tilted his head toward her.
    “With Master it was a daily thing, but not
always like that. He’d let me heal before he really gave it to me
again. He had other ways to get me where I needed to be.” She
rubbed her palms against her thighs over and over again.
    Jonathan reached over and pressed his hand
against one of hers, stopping the motion. “What happened to you? I
mean, what turn of events lead you to enjoy pain?”
    “I won’t discuss that, but it’s nothing bad,
just a sad emotional journey I don’t wish to revisit.” She shrugged
and crawled under the blanket yawning.
    “Shouldn’t I know if I’m to help you?”
Jonathan remained seated on the edge of the bed.
    “It’s not important. What’s important is the
person I am now. With Master, my emotions were stripped from me.
Feelings were taken advantage of and manipulated all for his
pleasure. It was humiliating, but the aftercare is what kept me
going back. He had a way with restoration, and making things right
again.” Her eye’s fluttered shut.
    “Was it always sexual?” He asked the
question before he realized he didn’t want to know. “Don’t answer
that if you don’t want to.”
    “No, I want to.” Her eyes remained closed.
“It wasn’t at first, but as time went on I found myself oddly
aroused when Master was harder on me than I wanted, but you know
me, and I don’t safeword.” A small smirk played across her mouth.
He watched her soft lips and wanted to feel them pressed against
his. “Once he figured out that I wouldn’t safeword it was game on.
He tried to break me, but that never happened, in fact I would
usually end up having an orgasm if anything. At first it pissed him
off, but then he came to enjoy watching me. We only ever had sex a
few times at my urging. Our relationship revolved around the power
we had over each other.”
    Roxi rolled over and snuggled in as Jonathan
ran his hand through her hair. “Sleep, Roxi. We can talk more after
you get some sleep.” He pressed a kiss to the back of her head and
waited for her breathing to slow. Once he knew she was asleep, he
left the room and quietly closed the