and disappear into the ocean.
I smile as I hold up my phone. I snap a quick photo and send it to him.
        Me: I love it.
        Noel: I thought you might.
        Me: Who lives there?
        Noel: Nobody anymore. The town takes care of it.
        Noel: When I was little there was this old guy who lived out there by himself after his wife died. They used to sail together and when he got too old to take care of the boat, he wanted to live on the water. So he built a floating cabin.
        Me: What happened to him?
        Noel: He died a year after she did. To the day.
        Me: Guess they couldnât stand to be apart.
        Noel: Maybe.
        Noel: Or maybe there was something in the water.
I laugh, a short, hard cackle, and a trio of birds scatters from the bushes beside me.
âWhatâs so funny?â
I whip around to see Tess standing behind me, her cheeks pink from climbing.
I tuck the phone guiltily into my pocket. âNothing. Just Terry. He sent some new ideas from wardrobe for the tour.â
âThat bad?â Tess loves to poke fun at the crazy things my style team comes up with. Last tour, she called me âBubblegum Barbieâ for two months straight.
I swallow. I hate lying, but I tell myself itâs for the best. The last thing I need is a speech from Tess about boys. If anyone knows what Iâm doing is wrong, itâs me. But thereâs that little part of me that does wonder if I need this, if Iâm unable to write without it. âYeah, itâs absurd,â I say. âIâll show you later.â
I start back up the trail. âCome on,â I call back to her. âI want to see this famous view.â I keep moving, my heart pounding in my chest, my phone buzzing in my pocket, holding my breath until I hear the familiar shuffle of Tessâs boots scurrying behind me.
11
77 Days Until Tour
June 27th
âARE THOSE THE shoes youâre wearing?â
Itâs late, almost ten oâclock, and Noel meets me behind the house at the top of the rickety beach staircase. Iâm wearing my favorite lace-up ankle boots, and one heel is caught between the slats of the wooden deck.
âYou said it wasnât a long walk,â I whisper. Weâre hidden from the house by a wall of tall shrubs, but I remember how far voices carry in the ocean breeze.
âItâs not long,â Noel says, grinning. âBut it is . . . you know . . . in nature.â He points toward a small opening in the trees, the beginning of a path I havenât seen before. âThis way.â
It was my idea to meet at night. Noel suggestedlunch, or another ride on his boat, but there was the issue of potentially being photographed with a new guy so soon after the breakup. And more important, I didnât want to hear about it from Tess and Sammy. Theyâd say all the things I already knew: itâs too soon, I always do this, I need more time by myself. But while I need to write new music, Iâm also here to unwind. To have fun. And spending time with Noelâtexting him, thinking about himâis the first time Iâve felt relaxed since I got here.
âAlmost there,â Noel encourages from a few paces ahead. His phone lights the trail between us, and he glances back often to make sure Iâm all right.
Noel had said he wanted to show me something, but now, tiptoeing over rocks in heels in the dark, I wish Iâd at least told Ray where I was going. I can just imagine a new crop of headlines:
Lily Ross Left for Dead by Strange Man in the Woods
Quest for Love Kills Starry-Eyed Singer
Iâm about to ask if we should turn back when the trail stops abruptly and the trees open