to play with…to fuck.”
She
tried to stand but Jax grabbed her upper arms, sitting her back on
his lap. His breathing was shallow, his heart thudding in his chest.
Having her this close, her scent all around, was driving him insane.
That she was hurt by his actions was breaking his heart.
He
nuzzled her neck, her hair against his cheek, warm and soft. He
closed his eyes, letting the sensation of having her so close wash
over him, wrapping his arms around her body, hugging her tightly.
“ No,
Nikki. You’ve got it wrong…all wrong.” He breathed
the words against her neck, his hands sliding up to cup her breasts.
He felt a tightness in his chest, a longing so deep and powerful it
made him almost cry. “So very wrong.”
Jax
stood, turning Nikki around, pulling her against the length of his
body. He caressed her face with one hand, the other splayed across
her back.
“ You’re
not my fantasy, you’re real. You’re what I want, just as
you are.” His eyes traveled over her face, confusion evident in
her eyes, along with pain. His voice was hoarse with emotion when he
spoke. “You’re not just a stripper, Nikki. You’re
so much more than that to me.”
He
scooped her up, carrying her to the bed, gently laying her on the
blankets. She looked up at him, her hair spread across his pillow,
her eyes wide.
“ How
can I be more? You hardly know me.”
Jax
climbed onto the bed beside her, fingers tracing over her cheek. “I
know. I know here…” He placed his hand on her chest,
over her heart. “I feel it, Nikki. In my bones, in my very
soul.”
He
leaned down, brushing his lips against hers. For an instant she
didn’t respond, but then, slowly she relaxed beneath his touch,
her lips parting. After a moment her arms came up and she wrapped
them around his neck.
The
kiss deepened and he slid one hand beneath her body, pulling her
against him. She responded, arching her back, her breasts pressed
against his chest, hips against his.
The
kiss went on, her tongue flicking out, tracing the contours of his
lower lip before slipping into his mouth. The touch of her sent a
thrill through his body and he shivered, pulling her closer, his body
moving over hers.
He
wanted her skin against his, their clothes suddenly a huge obstacle.
His hands tugged at the zipper on her jeans, fingers moving
restlessly beneath her shirt. She responded instantly, her hands
pulling his t-shirt up, palms sliding over his chest.
Then
she was pushing him over onto his back, rising up beside him.
“ Why
do you want me? What makes me so special?” Her voice was low,
hesitant, full of doubt.
He
looked up at her, her eyes questioning his, longing and hope and a
myriad of emotions all playing across her face.
“ I
want you because you’re meant for me. You’re my mate, my
soul mate…my everything.” He held her hand, kissing her
fingertips before pulling her down on top of him. She squirmed in his
grasp and he saw a smile playing about her lips.
“ You’re
everything I’ve ever wanted, Nikki. You’re like no other
girl I’ve ever met. And I want you, like I’ve never
wanted anything before.”
He
sat up, pulling his shirt over his head. Reaching for Nikki, he slid
her shirt up over her head, her hair falling about her shoulders. He
drew a sharp breath as an image of her, as his mate…in wolf
form…flashed through his mind. He saw her sleek and agile, the
color of sable tinged with fire.
She
pushed him back on the bed, reaching for the snap and zipper of his
jeans, her lower lip caught in her teeth in concentration. He lay
with his arms behind his head, as she slowly pulled down the zipper,
tugging his jeans down his hips.
Her
fingers were warm as she took his cock in her hand and he groaned
softly. She held him, stroking him softly, slowly. She watched him,
her eyes never leaving his face, her cheeks flushed, lips parted.
When
he couldn’t take anymore he sat up, tipping her back on the
bed. He had her jeans off in a