turn out. How little either of the brothers understood about him.
Both men were reacting to the catastrophe that had shaped their lives, the plane crash in which their parents were killed when Joryâs own father, the oldest child, was nineteen. The young man took over the leadership of the family of four boys as if heâd been preparing all his life for this responsibility. A tall, grave youth, he was determined to preside over an orderly world that couldnât be disrupted by accidents like the one that had so precipitously turned him into an adult. It was no surprise that he would gain a reputation for steadiness in his job with the government. His brother, younger by a year, took a different lesson from his parentsâ tragedy. The estate the older man had left turned out, after many legal battles, to be much smaller than anyone had imagined. Though accusations were made that their fatherâs business accounts were hopelessly scrambled, which was the charitable view, or deceptively inflated, which was the more common, the younger brother was convinced that the family had been cheated out of a large share of its money by sharp lawyers acting for an unscrupulous partner. Now he had a mission: to become a lawyer himself in order to ensure that others wouldnât be taken advantage of in the same way. Yet as a lawyer, Uncle Joryâs successes came from finding tax advantages for wealthy clients rather than from righting the wrongs of the oppressed. Occasionally, during one of his serious talks about life when heâd had too much to drink, he spoke dolefully of himself as a failure and it was clear then that he hoped his nephew would follow the path from which heâd strayed.
His uncle, his fatherâthey had lives. Whether successes or failures, they were lives. While he has what? Once more he thinks of Fotor, who had a way of getting under the surface. What would he say about Joryâs present situation? Youâre terrified, Jory. Donât try to deny it. What happened to you up north, why did you snap toward the end? Was it that you lost the heart to keep going on? The voice would be soft, even gentle, with no accusatory edge, just a man who was curious, asking questions. Didnât you even feel a sense of relief for a moment, heâd go on, at the thought of going to prison, ending this pointless existence of waiting? Heâd pause for a while, as if expecting an answer, then heâd go on. And what is it like here, now that youâve left that place, your name itself changed? Hasnât it become harder to keep up your personal religion of hope and memory? Doesnât your being a fugitive allow you still another distraction? Arenât you sometimes tempted by the idea that youâll simply disappear?
No, Jory answers, no. You have it all wrong.
âHey, Jory, weâve got to get this job done today.â Itâs Carl, of course, whoâs caught him the one moment heâs stopped to catch his breath.
âO.K.,â he answers with a jerk of the head. Ox, Jory says to himself, keep your eye on your own work. As if he doesnât get at least as much done by the end of the day as the other man does. He breathes deeply, calming himself. Better to block Carl out of his mind and keep within the tunnel of his work.
He pushes a wheelbarrow of freshly-turned earth up a slight incline. He remembers the pleasantly harsh smell of his uncleâs tobacco, which vividly brings back those long afternoons in his study: the decoys, the whiskey, the hunting printsâhe even remembers fondly the roses he was asked to admire. Carefully, he maneuvers the wheelbarrow to the place where the bushes have been planted; he lifts it and the thick, moist earth slides out, some clumps adhering to the blue metal even after heâs shaken the wheelbarrow several times. How would he have resolved the questions about his career if heâd have been allowed to stay in the
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