The Black Lung Captain by Chris Wooding Page A

She'd always suspected he felt the same. He spoke to her most out of al the crew, though usualy about matters of engineering. Machinery was their common ground.
    Now it occurred to her that Silo was reaching out to her. Offering something. Making a connection.
    'There was a woman, once,' he said. 'We was both young, but old enough. I hadn't seen anythin' like her. Thought there weren't no finer thing in the world. And she thought likewise about me. That's what she said.' He shook his head, blew out a jet of smoke. 'Hard-headed woman. Loved her fierce but she drove me crazy.
    We'd fight and make up, over and over. Harsh 'n' sweet, harsh 'n' sweet. She had a temper, too.'
    Jez had a horrible feeling she knew where this was going.
    'One time we both went too far. The rage got me. Only for a second, but that was plenty. Won't never forget the look on her face, her holdin' her cheek like that. Saw it in her eyes. I'd lost her, right then. Didn't matter how I begged nor pleaded, she wouldn't look at me again. Never.'
    Why are you telling me this?
    'Damn, I was sick with the rage after that. Like an animal. They had to chain me down for a week. But the madness passed, and when I was wel again, things was different. Every time I saw her after that, with some other man in the camp, I'd think: That's what rage did for you. And I swore I wouldn't never let it out again.'
    'And did you?' Jez had to ask.
    'Only one time,' he said. 'Years later. Day I escaped the factory where they had us makin' aircraft. He had a gun, I just had fists an' teeth. Don't remember much of what happened after, but I'm here and he ain't.' He flicked away his rol-up, and it was extinguished by the rain. 'Sane man wouldn't have charged him like that.
    But I weren't sane, not then.'
    He got to his feet. Standing, he towered over her.
    'Point I'm makin' is, you ignore your bad side, it eat you up. Like my papa and my brother. You got to face it. You got to make it a part of you, control it.
    Maybe one day it save your life, yuh?'
    Jez looked at him, startled. How did he know? How did he have any idea of the struggle within her, the push and pul between human and Mane?
    He answered her question before she could ask it. 'Think I don't see you walkin' off on your own, worryin', workin' things out? I see you. You the same as everyone else, Crake 'n' me 'n' al of us. Think you better off keepin' it al to yourself.' He turned to her, eyes dark in the shadow of his hood. 'You ain't.'
    Jez met his gaze. Of al the people to tackle her about this, Silo was the most unlikely. Of course, the others knew she was different, but they avoided the issue on purpose out of respect for her secrets. She'd been grateful for their consideration, but it also left her entirely alone. It occurred to her that she was doing exactly the same thing to Crake. Of al the crew she was the only one who knew the grief he carried, yet they'd only ever spoken of it once.
    Perhaps she didn't have to deal with this al alone. Perhaps Crake didn't, either.
    'Thanks, Silo,' she said.
    He puled back his hood and turned his face up to the rain. Water trickled over his shaven scalp. 'In Samaria I was a slave,' he said. 'In Vardia I'm the enemy.
    This might be the first damn place I ever been where I'm just a man.'
    He smiled. An actual smile. Jez almost fel over with the shock.
    'Freedom makes a feler talkative, I reckon,' he said.
    That was when the screams began.

Seven
    A Commotion In The Camp — Crake Is Missing —
    Frey Takes To The Trees — A Worrying Discovery
    Frey dreamed of a meadow on a hil. He dreamed of a young woman with long blond hair and a smile of such innocent beauty that it melted him to see it.rey dreamed of a meadow on a hil. He dreamed of a young woman with long blond hair and a smile of such innocent beauty that it melted him to see it.
    Trinica was her name. They were mad with the joy of first love, swept up in each other. He chased her through the tal grass, but she was always one