begin to express how much I need you.”
“I’m sorry Cash, I can’t.”
“Will you come back tomorrow? One more night. I have work in Montana and I’ll be gone for months. I don’t know when I’ll be back or if my brother will even let me stay here again,” he pleaded as he wrapped his hands around hers, “Just one more night?”
Traci considered it. It would be one last time, and it wasn’t like she could deny the feelings she had for him either, or her attraction to him. Even though she didn’t fully understand what her feelings towards him were, maybe just one more night with him could help her figure it out. She liked both Cash and Sawyer, a lot. That much she knew. She also knew she couldn’t keep them both. They were as different as night and day which made everything even more difficult. She had to come back. One last time, and when it was over, she’d truly be able to commit to seeing where things would go with Sawyer.
She and Sawyer never agreed to be exclusive, so as far as she was concerned, it was OK to spend time with another man. The only thing that was wrong with the scenario was that the two men turned out to be brothers. Well, that and that she was keeping each a secret from the other.
If Sawyer ever found out it would devastate him. He already didn’t like Cash for whatever reason, and if he found out she worried he wouldn’t ever be able to forgive her. She couldn’t let Sawyer find out. It was for his own good. She wouldn’t let Cash find out either, but none of it would matter after tomorrow when Cash would leave town.
“Yes. Tomorrow.”
CHAPTER TWELVE
As Traci ran through the trees back towards her car she silently screamed at herself. She didn’t know what she was thinking, and that she was completely out of her mind. She knew that she was playing with fire that it was wrong and someone was bound to get hurt. And she was beyond stupid for agreeing to see Cash again.
She ran through the darkness as quickly as she could. Branches scraped at her as if they were trying to grab her. Trying to convince her to slow down or stop, but it only made her go faster. But the branches weren’t referring to her running speed. Even the trees thought she was making a mistake. Traci wanted to yell at the trees and explain that she couldn’t help that she liked them both. It wasn’t fair to judge her. She could have sworn that she’d heard the trees whispering to her that she had to choose.
Cash would be picking her up at the beach tomorrow night. She had told a little white lie and said something was wrong with her car and that she’d need a ride. The truth was that she couldn’t have her car parked at the trailer for Sawyer to see. He hadn’t had a problem with it, said he was glad to do it and told her he couldn’t wait to see her. In fact, he’d even offered to take a look at it to see if he could fix it for her. That was not an option unless she was ready to introduce him to her parents. Which she was not. The thought of introducing the hot cowboy she’d fucked a couple times to her parents made her smile.
Traci wanted to get her car off the property as soon as possible. She knew farmers got up early to work, but she didn’t know exactly how early. She hoped to be long gone by then. If Sawyer saw her leaving, it wouldn’t take him more than a minute to figure it out.
She dropped into the driver’s seat and told her car ‘shh’ as she turned the key in the ignition. As she drove away, she tried to convince herself that it was OK to see Cash again, and the right thing to do otherwise she’d always wonder what might have been. Maybe she could pack a bag and leave this town behind. Living on the road really couldn’t be that bad, she could sleep in a truck if she had to. It might not be ideal or a typical start to a relationship but they would be together and maybe that’s all they needed.
Could she really just pick up and leave Sawyer behind without