Limboâthat might be part of Limbo.
No shoes, no toothbrushes, no mouth washes, no proper food, no medicines or medics. But there was a doctor hereâa human doctor who had broken in, a man who had committed himself to Limbo of his own free will.
What kind of man would you have to be, he wondered, to do a thing like that? What motive would you have to have to drive you? What kind of idealism, or what sort of bitterness, to sustain you along the way? What sort of love or hate, to stay?
He sat back on the pallet, giving up his hunt for shoes, shaking his head in silent wonderment at the things a man could do. The human race, he thought, was a funny thing. It paid lip service to reason and to logic, and yet more often it was emotion and illogic that served to shape its ends.
And that, he thought, might be the reason that all the medics now were robots. For medicine was a science that only could be served by reason and by logic and there was in the robots nothing that could correspond to the human weakness of emotion.
Carefully he swung his feet off the pallet and put them on the floor, then slowly stood erect. He stood in dark loneliness and the dampness of the floor soaked into his soles.
Symbolic, he thoughtâunintentional, perhaps, but a perfect symbolic introduction to the emptiness of this place called Limbo.
He reached out his hands, groping for some point of reference as he slowly shuffled forward.
He found a wall, made of upright boards, rough sawn with the tough texture of the saw blade unremoved by any planing, and with uneven cracks where they had been joined together.
Slowly he felt his way along them and came at last to the place they ended. Groping, he made out that he had found a doorway, but there was no door.
He thrust a foot over the sill, seeking for the ground outside, and found it, almost even with the sill.
Quickly, as if he might be escaping, he swung his body through the door and now, for the first time, there was a break in darkness. The lighter sky etched the outline of mighty trees and at some level which stood below the point he occupied he could make out a ghostly whiteness that he guessed was ground fog, more than likely hanging low above a lake or stream.
He stood stiff and straight and took stock of himself. A little weak and giddy, and a coldness in his belly and a shiver in his bones, but otherwise all right.
He put up a hand and rubbed it along his jaw and the whiskers grated. A week or more, he thought, since he had shavedâit must have been that long, at least. He tried to drive his mind back to find when heâd last shaved, but time ran together like an oily fluid and he could make nothing of it.
He had run out of food and had gone downtown, the first time in many daysânot wanting to go even then, but driven by his hunger. There wasnât time to go, there was time for nothing, but there came a time when a man must eat. How long had it really been, he wondered, that heâd gone without a bite to eat, glued to the task that he was doing, that important task which heâd now forgotten, only knowing that he had been doing it and that it was unfinished and that he must get back to it.
Why had he forgotten? Because he had been ill? Was it possible that an illness would make a man forget?
Letâs start, he thought, at the first beginning. Letâs take it slow and simple. One step at a time, carefully and easily; not all in a rush.
His name was Alden Street and he lived in a great, high, lonely house that his parents had built almost eighty years ago, in all its pride and arrogance, on the mound above the village. And for this building on the mound above the village, for the pride and arrogance, his parents had been hated, but for all the hate had been accepted since his father was a man of learning and of great business acumen and in his years amassed a small-sized fortune dealing in farm mortgages and other properties in Mataloosa county.
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