fixed?â I asked.
âNo. I canât.â Ashley got back on her knees and hugged the beast. âIâm not helping someone whoâs mean to my dog and mean to my cousin. You have to defend your friends, Daisy. Donât you know that? Iâm taking Fred upstairs until youâre ready to say youâre sorry.â She shook the Beefy Bits bag and âFredâ pranced after her, barking like a maniac for his treat.
I crossed my arms. âSheâs the worst partner ever!â
Graham turned to me and said, âHer head is messed up, and it wonât ever heal right. You are mean, Daisy Bauer.â
I leaned forward and yelled at him, âAm not! You are mean. You pull my hair!â
âYouâd suck the nice out of a puppy!â
Now that was a good line, and my mouth wanted to fire back, but I couldnât think of anything equal, except âYouâd suck the nice out of a kitten,â and that would be the stupidest thing to say. Ever.
Then my brain came up with words, and they shot out my mouth. âIf Iâm so mean how come I have friends and you donât have any!â
Right away I wanted to take it back. I wished I had a net to catch those words before they got to his ears.
Grahamâs eyes flashed sad and mad but mostly mad. His hands curled into fists, and I thought he wanted to hit me. I dashed to the dining room, to the other side of the table. He followed and in seconds we were circling the table. Tigers ready to pounce.
I tried some different words, words to help forget the other words. âIf Iâm so mean, what are you doing here? Why are you going to Club Fed?â
âIâm a friend helping a friend helping her dad.â He said friend like he meant turd . âYou donât know what friend means. Youâre clueless.â
âIâm not clueless!â
âFree of clues. Thatâs what you are.â
âStop it right now, Graham Cracker!â
âOr what? Youâll watch Jesse push me? Youâll ignore me at lunch? Youâll pretend you donât hear Alice call me âspaz boyâ?â
Judge Henry, I wish I could tell you Graham was a whiner and a fake. But Iâd done all those things. When you asked me if I had any shame, I tell you, cross my heart and hope to die, my shame then and there almost burst my body into flames.
Graham stared at me. I bit my lip and looked at the floor. The quiet made me burn even hotter.
I said, âWe have to find that coin.â
Grahamâs voice was growly. âMove.â
So I moved. He sat on the kitchen floor and inspected the bottom of the refrigerator, poking and pulling at cords and coils. His fingers came out covered with grease and spiderwebs.
I knelt beside him. âNothing?â
âYou sure it went under the refrigerator?â
âIâm sure! Two hundred percent!â I poked and pulled in all the places heâd just poked and pulled.
Graham kicked the refrigerator. âNow what?â
Tears trickled down the front of my granny gown. I ran past the tipped-on-the-door refrigerator, through the dining room, and out the front door. I ran. I ran across the driveway, across the grass, and into the old barn. The door opened with a creak and slammed behind me.
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DEAR JUDGE HENRY,
Alone in the barn I couldnât hear anything but my sniffles and the blop blop blop of rain hitting the roof. I hate crying in front of people, except for my mom, whoâs good at back rubs. I wiped my eyes and nose on the floppy pink granny gown. My feet were wet and cold.
The barn was full of stink and junkâyard junk and farm junk and Fred stink. In the corner, right next to the door, were some smelly old pillows, huge bowls of water, and dog food. Fredâs little home. I curled up on the pillow.
Iâd ruined everything. The Idea Coin was lost, and we werenât going far without it. If fed-mates canât figure out how
Ngũgĩ wa Thiong’o, Moses Isegawa