wanted to adopt him.
No.
Eva knew there was no way heâd be hoping that. He loved his family, whatever anyone else thought of them. Heâd be wanting to come home.
âHeâll be hating it. Itâs his worst nightmare. He told me that heâd never let Melanie take him away from his family. But he couldnât stop her. This is my fault,â she said quietly.
âHow is any of this your fault?â Heidi asked.
âHe should have been at the lodge today. If heâd been with us, then Melanie wouldnât have come to take him away. But he stayed home.â
âIâm still waiting for the part where thatâs your fault.â
Eva felt her face redden. Her cheeks were hot with shame. âI didnât give him a chance to explain. Last night, he asked me to meet him. But I was angry, so I didnât go. I knew that the police were going to talk to Michael. Iâm just like everyone else, judging Jamie by what his family does.â
âDo you think he wanted to explain?â Heidi asked.
Eva nodded. âHe waited for me for ages. He thought I was his friend, but I let him down. If I had met him last night, he might have come to the lodge with us today. He might have helped with the clean-up. He might have been there making it right â instead he was in his house. The police must have called Melanie as soon as they knew he was home. She wouldnât have taken him away if heâd been with us. Oh, Heidi, he thinks that no one cares about him.â
âYou care,â Heidi said. âSounds like you care a lot.â
âHe doesnât know that. And now heâs gone.â
Heidi was silent for a moment. She kicked at the scab of dry soil beneath the swing. âMaybe itâs for the best though. Whoeverâs fault it is. Maybe Jamie will be better off wherever he is now.â
Eva shook her head. âNo way. He loves his family. Even if they are a bit of a nightmare. Heâs going to hate wherever it is that Melanie took him.â Her nails dug into her palms. She realised that she was feeling angry, as well as guilty.
âHeidi,â she said, âI need to find him. I need to see that heâs OK. I need to say sorry. Maybe even get him back! What do you think?â
Heidiâs eyebrows shot up. âGet him back? He isnât a computer game youâve lent to someone. His social worker has taken him into care. You canât just ask nicely and get him back.â
Eva looked at the rickety fence that divided her garden from Jamieâs. Sunlight dappled it with warmth. Even the shed looked more golden than brown. It was all right for her. She was here, with Gran and Heidi, and Dad was on his way home. It was all normal. But everything had changed for Jamie, and it was all because of her.
âI have to go and find out where he is,â she said.
âGo where?â
âNext door. Mr McIntyre might be there. Or Drew. I can ask them where Jamieâs gone.â
Heidi stood up. She looked horrified, as though a whole cyberman army had materialised next to the swing. âYou want to ask Mr McIntyre if he knows where Jamie is on the day that his wife and son were arrested and his other son has been whisked away by the council?â
Eva nodded slowly. She thought that was what she wanted to do.
âWow. Well, all I can say is what song do you want played at your funeral?â
Chapter 18
Eva glanced from Heidi back to the fence and Jamieâs house. She imagined walking up to the front door, ringing the bell and asking a distraught Mr McIntyre if he knew where Jamie was. It would be like finding a hornetsâ nest and telling the hornets that their queen was ugly. She wouldnât get out of there in one piece.
âYouâre right,â she said. âI canât ask Mr McIntyre, not today at least. But the longer we leave it the colder the trail will get.â
âPhew. A wise choice.â