off.â
âDid it work?â
He only smiled, and slid a plate into its cabinet. âThen a couple weeks before we turned seventeen, things started happening again. I knewâwe knewâit wasnât finished after all. It came home to me that what I had wasnât something to play around with. I stopped.â
âMostly?â
âAlmost entirely. Itâs there, Layla, itâs part of us. I canât control the fact that I might get a sense from someone. I can control pushing in, pulling out more.â
âThatâs what I have to learn.â
âAnd you may have to learn to push. If it comes down to someoneâs privacy or their life, or the lives of others, you have to push in.â
âBut how do you know whenâwhen, if, who?â
âWeâll work on it.â
âIâm not relaxed around you, most of the time.â
âIâve noticed. Why is that?â
She turned away to get more dishes, then slid a bowl into the sink. The little boy had gone inside, she noted. In to eat dinner. His dog curled on the porch by the back door and slept off playtime.
âBecause Iâm aware you can, or could, sense what I think or feel. Or I worry that you can, so it makes me nervous. But you donât, because you hold back, or because Iâm nervous enough to stop you. Maybe both. You didnât know what I was thinking, or feeling earlier today when you kissed me.â
âMy circuits were crossed at the time.â
âWeâre attracted to each other. Would that be an accurate reading?â
âItâs dead-on from my end.â
âAnd that makes me nervous. Itâs also confusing, because I donât know how much weâre picking up from each other, how much is just basic chemistry.â Layla rinsed the bowl, passed it to Fox. âI donât know if this is something we should be dealing with, with everything else we have to worry about.â
âLetâs back up, just a little. Are you nervous because Iâm attracted to you, or because weâre attracted to each other?â
âDoor number two, and I donât have to see inside your head when I can see by your face you like that idea.â
âBest damn idea Iâve heard in weeks. Possibly years.â
She planted a wet, soapy hand on his shirt as he started to lean in. âI canât relax if Iâm thinking about going to bed with you. The idea of sex generally stirs me up.â
âWe could relax later. In fact, I can guarantee weâll be a lot more relaxed later if we finish the stirring-up part first.â
She not only left her hand planted, but nudged him a full step back with it. âNo doubt. But I compartmentalize things. Itâs how Iâm built, itâs how I work. This, between us, I have to put it in another compartment for a while. I have to think about it, worry about it, wonder about it. If Iâm going to learn from you, if Iâm going to help end what wants to end us, I need to focus on that.â
His expression sober and attentive, he nodded. âI like to juggle.â
âI know.â
âAnd I like to negotiate. And.â He dried her hand, then brought it to his lips. âI know when to let the opposing party consider all the options. I want you. Naked. In bed, in a room filled with shadows and quiet music. I want to feel your heart pound against my hand while I do things to you. So put that in your compartment, Layla.â
He tossed aside his dishcloth as she stared at him. âIâm going to go get your wine. It should help you relax some before we get to work.â
She was still staring when he strolled out. She managed to press a hand to her heart, and yes, it was pounding.
Obviously, she had a lot to learn if heâd had that in him and she hadnât sensed it.
It was going to take more than a glass of red wine to help her relax now.
SHE DRANK THE WINE; HE CLEARED