The Nurse's Love (BWWM Romance) by Tyra Brown, BWWM Crew Page B

better…I knew love wasn’t real. The only person I knew that would love me was God. But now I'm older. I believe it can happen but it isn’t always easy.”
     
    “So you have changed your mind about love then? You told me a few months ago you didn’t. What changed?” He watched her closely.
     
    “I’m not sure it just has.” She turned her face back up to the ceiling.
     
    “What about boyfriends and such, Faith? There is no way you never had a boyfriend.”
     
    “I had some, mainly just friends. When it got to a place where they wanted more, I would end it. It complicates things...love does.”
     
    “I’m sorry, Faith, I’m sorry your life was like that. I keep seeing you as a child and it breaks my heart how anyone could be mean to you or hurt you.”
     
    “Thank you, Cooper, but I am stronger now for it.” She smiled at him.
     
    “Still, I hurt for you.” He said it with some finality. “You know, Faith, not all relationships are like that. There are some that are very good. They just take work, you just haven’t found the right person yet, Faith, that’s all.”
     
    “How do you know there is a ‘right person’ out there, Cooper? How can you be sure?”
     
    He took her hand in his again. “You just need to open your eyes to what’s around you, Faith, that’s all.” Faith enjoyed the moment they shared for a second before breaking the spell by pulling her hand away.
     
    “Well tell me, what did you want to be when you grew up?” She smiled at him encouragingly.
     
    “Okay no laughing, I wanted to be a musician. I played jazz sax and I was pretty good at it. I decided in my senior year of high school I wanted to be a musician. I was planning to follow my dream. When I went to college, my father indulged me slightly; we agreed I could take classes in both musical arts and business. He never put much faith in my musical career ideas. He said they were great for a hobby but not a career. I had gotten into so much trouble as a teen, I think it was his way of making sure I even attended college at all. It took a lot for me to grow up. By the time I had, Andrew was next to take over the business and I was being groomed as a backup. When he got sick in my last year at So Cal, I graduated and took over helping him from home. He couldn’t leave the house for a year.
     
    “So here I am now, I enjoy the health profession and being a doctor, the structure and strategy of it all but I miss the freedom I had in music. My father got well but he was different somehow, he never started back again.”
     
    “Have you ever thought about playing again?” Faith was surprised he had a musical streak, she would have never taken him for that.
     
    “Play now? I can’t even imagine to be honest. I would be nice to try.” He smiled at her. “I would be all over the place doing gigs and playing in a band. Can you just see it?” He laughed heartily.
     
    “Yes, I think it’s important to make time to do what you love, Cooper.” His laughter was infectious and she giggled herself.
     
    “What about you, Faith, do you have a dream you want to fulfill?”
     
    Loving you, she thought to herself but answered, “I want to travel.” She smiled.
     
    “Travel? Where would you like to go?” Cooper asked.
     
    “I have a book, it seems silly I know but it’s filled with things I want to see at each place I want to visit. Mainly I want to go to France.” She explained the nursing abroad program and how she had applied but never heard anything so it probably wasn’t going to happen.
     
    “Don’t give up, Faith, you’re great at your job, maybe one day we can go together. You the nurse and me a musician.” He smiled.
     
    “That would be wonderful, Cooper.” She smiled at him. Knowing it would never happen but enjoying the fantasy, Faith lay on her back and glanced at the ceiling. The nurses came in again to check vitals and Faith excused herself to change into something comfortable and settle