shady grass off in the distance, and I trudged toward it. Kristen was already standing there, tapping her foot impatiently. She looked at me in horror.
âOh, God,â she said. âYouâre kidding me.â
âNope,â I said.
âIs it just the two of us?â she asked. âBecause if it isââ
I never found out what she was going to say. A smiling boy had suddenly stepped into our little patch of shade. Kristen and I fell silent.
âHey,â he said, his hand outstretched, âIâm Pradeep.â
Kristen and I both stared at him, speechless. Then, for some miraculous reason, I recovered my composure.
âIâm Molly,â I said, and shook his hand. He grinned at me.
âWhat up, Molly?â he said.
He had thick black hair and skin the color of maple syrup. He had a gap between his two front teeth. He had hazel eyes. He had a crooked grin. He had ears that were just a little too big for his head. He had a gorgeous lips. He had the tiniest bit of chest hair poking out from underneath the neck of his V-neck T-shirt. He had bony wrists. He had a pronounced Adamâs Apple that throbbed slightly when he smiled. He hadâ
âIâm Kristen,â said Kristen. She stepped forward, her red hair falling across half of her face, and delicately offered him her hand.
The boy blinked. I watched his hazel eyes take in Kristenâs perfect skin, her perfect hair, her perfect dress, her perfect body. No! I tried to telepathically communicate to him, donât!
âItâs weird that you shake peopleâs hands,â Kristen said to him, raising one eyebrow.
He tilted his head to one side and stared at her, mock serious. âYou got a problem with that?â he asked.
âYeah,â she said, her lips thrumming with a half-concealed smile. âI do.â
They grinned at each other.
Great. Just great.
âOKAY, EVERYONE!â screamed the megaphone girl. âI WANT TWO PEOPLE IN EVERY GROUP TO PAIR OFF!â
âWell, Iâm definitely not pairing off with you,â Pradeep said to Kristen.
âYou neither,â she giggled, and they moved toward each other as if by magnetic force.
âOookay,â I said. âI guess you guys are the pair.â
They ignored me.
âNOW!â the girl said. âTHIRD PERSON, FACE AWAY FROM THE PAIR!â
I sighed and faced away from Kristen and Pradeep. I could see a Japanese-style pond in the distance, with tall reeds and stone benches. I pictured sitting on one of the benches with Pradeep and whispering word origins in his ear. Youâre so smart, heâd murmur, and then our fingers would touch.
âFALL BACK!â the girl yelled into the megaphone, interrupting my fantasy.
My heart froze. I turned around to face Kristen and Pradeep.
âWhatâd she say?â I asked.
Kristen stared at me, already annoyed. âShe said fall back. Fall back and weâll catch you.â
âUm,â I said. âI donât want to.â
âItâs okay,â said Pradeep. âYou can trust us.â
I looked at him for a long time. He smiled reassuringly at me, and I watched his amazing Adamâs apple bob up and down. What would it be like to touch his neck?
âFor Godâs sakes, Molly,â Kristen said. âFall.â
âOkay, okay,â I said, and turned back to face the Japanese garden. I paused. I didnât want to fall. Why was this a necessary part of boarding school orientation? What did this have to do with math and English class?
âFALL!â I heard through the megaphone. âFALL!â
I closed my eyes. The sun shone through my closed lids and made everything a pulsing orange color. I smelled the new-cut grass and the sunscreen on peopleâs skin. Okay. I had to do it. I had to take risks. This was my new life. Everything was different now.
I took a deep breath. I rocked back on my ankles. Once. Twice. A