and reluctantly pulled away from her. He straightened up and then reached behind her to zip up her dress. When he was finished, he caged her between his arms as he leaned on the balcony trying to catch his breath and convince his dick that it wasnât about to explode in frustration.
âSean?â
He looked into her eyes, and they were glazed, confused and so damned sexy he wanted to throw away his own stupid sense of honor and do what they both wanted to do. But he wouldnât.
Not yet, anyway. Not until sheâd released him from the damn vow.
Her hands dropped to his shoulders and held on as if she were unsure of her balance and standing alone. He understood that completely. His own legs were a little shaky, which was lowering to admit. Hell, heâd never been soâ¦rattled by a woman.
âSean, that wasââ
âMelinda,â he said, resting his forehead against hers, âa couple more minutes of this andâ¦â
âOh. Oh .â She pulled in a long, shuddering breath and nodded slowly. âI canât believe we justââ
âYeah well,â he whispered with a rueful smile, âitâs been a long day.â
She laughed a little brokenly and the sound wrenched at something inside him. âI shouldnât haveâI canât believe I let youâwanted you toââ
Sean eased back and cupped her face in his palms. âMelinda, itâs no big deal.â Liar , his brain shouted, but he ignored it. âWeâre married, right? We kissed. Weââ He let her go, and shoved both hands through his hair. âJust, donât beat yourself up over it, okay?â
âSean, thereâs something you should know.â
He waited and a moment later, she spoke again.
âI was engaged once. My fiancé, Steven Hardesty, died in a car accident here on the island more than a year ago.â
Her gaze was filled with regret, old pain and the shadows of guilt. Only a few seconds ago, desire had been churning through his veins like lava. In one flashing instant, it was gone. In the very next heartbeat, it was replaced by anger.
âSteven?â
She nodded miserably, letting her gaze slide away from his. âHe died and Iââ
âWhat?â Sean demanded, turning her face back to his. âNeeded to find someone to scratch your itch?â
âWhat?â
âWhy else am I here?â
âOh please,â she said, misery in her eyes sliding away to show him that she too had a temper. âYou know exactly why youâre here. We have a deal.â
âYeah?â He just looked at her. âDeal or not, you didnât seem to be giving much thought to good olâ Steven a minute ago.â
âYouââ Her jaw snapped shut on whatever else she might have said. She settled for giving him a glare that should have set fire to his hair.
âYou said you werenât interested in romance. Why?â Sean demanded, keeping his voice low, ever mindful of the room full of wedding guests right behind them. âAfter Steven died you went into proverbial hiding? Tucked your heart into a box and buried it with him, is that it?â
âYou donât understand,â she countered and a flash of anger that matched his glittered briefly in her eyes.
âOh, I understand more than you think,â Sean told her. He fought the churning sense of outrage and anger, but damned if he could conquer it completely. He snorted in disbelief at this whole situation. Melinda had researched him. Seems he should have done some of that himself. âSo it wasnât all a business deal at all. Iâm a damn substitute for the late, great Steven.â
âDonât talk about him like that.â
âWhy not?â Sean argued. âIâm his stand-in. Who better?â
She whipped her hair out of her face and glared up at him. âYouâre not a replacement for Steven. I told