and I wasnât sure I could do it now. I had to stand with my back to her, which in itself was embarrassing.
When I stopped playing, Venice smiledâa huge relief, even though I wasnât sure if she was smiling with me or at me.
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That summer, Venice sent me a postcard a week from Europe. Sheâd seen Georges in Tuscany and described it in six languages, including pig Latin: âElt-fay othing-nay.â
In late August, she called from Capri to invite me to spend Labor Day weekend on Long Island, where Hughâs family had a house. Iâd never gotten a call from Europe and wasnât sure how expensive it was, and I found myself saying yes because it was faster than saying no, which would have required an explanation.
Hugh and Venice picked me up at the train, in his grandparentsâ old station wagon. Venice gave me the front seat, and I looked out at the bushes of blue hydrangeas, the huge shade trees, and the houses with their silvered cedar shingles.
Hughâs was on the bay side, across Dune Road from the beach. The house was big but shabby; his family had managed to hold on to the house but had no money to keep it up. Youâd open a drawer and the pull would come off in your hand.
I was worried that Iâd feel awkward as the guest of Venice, as a guest of a guest, a guest once-removed. But Hugh introduced me to his mother and grandparents and sister as his âgreat friend,â and that was how I felt.
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My favorite time of day was the late, late afternoon with the sun golding up the ocean and sand and sea grass and dunes. Venice said it was called âmagic hourâ in the movies. She knew because sheâd read a few scripts by then, given to her by a director sheâd met that summer.
One magic hour, after swimming, we got dressed on the beach in jeans and sweaters. We unpacked a dinner picnic of leftoversâcold crabs and cold corn on the cob and tomatoes Venice had flecked withfresh basil. Hugh made a fire, and we drank wine and stayed out there on the beach late into the night.
When we got back everyone was asleep, and Venice went off to Hughâs bedroom, as she did every night. Sheâd come back to ours just as the sky was getting light, and sometimes Iâd wake up and remember where I was and Iâd feel as happy then as I ever had.
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The three of us were happy as quahogs until Labor Day. It was overcast, and I thought that was what made the morning seem slow and thick.
Without much enthusiasm, Hugh suggested sailing.
Venice looked dubious; she noted the lack of wind. Then she said, âOur train leaves at four.â
Hugh said, âI know what time your train leaves.â
Venice seemed oblivious to his tone, and maybe she was at first. However upset sheâd been when sheâd gotten into Brown, I knew she was excited now about going. She wasnât talking about it, but she radiated the exuberance you can feel about going to a new place or starting a new thing.
Hugh wasnât going anywhere or starting anything; he hadnât found a job yet.
Finally we went sailing, without any of us really wanting to. It was a little boat, not much bigger than a Sunfish, and it looked old. As I got in, I asked Hugh when it had last been used.
Hugh seemed to wonder himself for a minute, and I thought, Three drown in boating accident.
Both Venice and Hugh knew how to sail, and all I really did was watch them and the bay, lower my head when the boom crossed over, and look forward to going back to the house and taking one last outdoor shower before getting on the train.
The sky clouded over, and there was no sun at all anymore, and no wind, either. Finally Venice said, âWe should head back.â Hugh didnât answer, just turned the boat around.
They had to tackâzigzagâthe whole way back across the bay. Hugh kept sighing, and he seemed annoyed. He was giving
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