his hands on her shoulders and stepped back.
âThatâs not a good idea.â When her mouth turned into a pout, he nearly groaned.
âA few hours ago, you seemed to think it was a very good idea.â She shrugged his hands off her shoulders before she turned. âApparently youâre still a lot of talk and no action.â
He spun her around quickly, threats hovering on his tongue. As she watched, the livid fury in his eyes died to a smolder. âYou still know what buttons to push.â
She tilted her head. âAnd you donât.â
He slipped a hand around her throat. âYouâre such a brat.â When she tossed back her head, he was tempted to give her throat just one quick squeeze. He reminded himself that he was a doctor. âIt would serve you right if I dragged you upstairs and made love to you until you were deaf, dumb and blind.â
She felt a thrill of excitement mixed with alarm. What would it be like? Hadnât she wondered since the first moment sheâd seen him again? Maybe it was time to be reckless.
âIâd like to see you try.â
Desire seared through him as he looked at her, her head thrown back, her eyes hooded, her mouth soft and sulky. He knew what it would be like. Damn her. Heâd spent hours trying not to imagine what now came all too clearly to his mind. In defense he took a step backward.
âDonât push it, Van.â
âIf you donât want me, whyâ?â
âYou know I do,â he shouted at her as he spun away. âDamn it, you know I always have. You make me feel like Iâm eighteen and itchy again.â When she took a step forward, he threw up a hand. âJust stay away from me.â He snatched up his beer and took a long, greedy swallow. âYou can take the bed,â he said more calmly. âIâve got a sleeping bag I can use down here.â
âWhy?â
âThe timing stinks.â He drained the beer and tossed theempty bottle into a five-gallon drum. It shattered. âBy God, if weâre going to have another shot at this, weâre going to do it right. Tonight youâre upset and confused and unhappy. Youâre angry with your mother, and youâre not going to hate me for taking advantage of all of that.â
She looked down at her hands and spread them. He was right. That was the hell of it. âThe timingâs never been right for us, has it?â
âIt will be.â He put a hand on either side of her face. âYou can count on it. Youâd better go up.â He dropped his hands again. âBeing noble makes me cranky.â
With a nod, she started toward the stairs. At the base, she stopped and turned. âBrady, Iâm really sorry youâre such a nice guy.â
He rubbed at the tension at the back of his neck. âMe, too.â
She smiled a little. âNo, not because of tonight. Youâre right about tonight. Iâm sorry because it reminds me how crazy I was about you. And why.â
Pressing a hand to the ache in his gut, he watched her go upstairs. âThanks a lot,â he said to himself. âThatâs just what I needed to hear to make sure I donât sleep at all tonight.â
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Vanessa lay in Bradyâs bed, tangled in Bradyâs sheets. The dog had deserted him to sleep at her feet. She could hear the soft canine snoring as she stared into the deep, deep country dark.
Would sheâcould sheâhave gone through with her invitation to come to this bed with him? A part of her yearned to. A part of her that had waited all these years to feel as only he could make her feel.
Yet, when she had offered herself to him, she had done so recklessly, heedlessly, and in direct opposition to her own instinct for survival.
She had walked away from him just this evening, angry, even insulted, at his cocky insistence that they would become lovers. What kind of sense did it make for her to have