had said about me liking Matt. Suddenly, everything seemed so clear. I dropped Gilliganâs leash and wrapped my arms around Mattâs neck. I hugged him hard, and he let me.
On the side of my cheek, I could feel his tears running into my own.
Iâm just trying to change the world, one sequin at a time.
âLady Gaga
Friday, February 28, 6:15 p.m.
Day before the show
Every afternoon this week, I stayed after rehearsal and worked with Des. It was Mattâs idea. On Sunday, he told me this story about his first baseball coach in California who wouldnât let him leave practice one day until he learned to hit.
âIâll never forget it,â Matt told me. âIt was just Little League, but he treated it like it was the majors. He made me stay at the field and work on my swing for hours after the other kids had gone home. But somehow that night, I got it. You should make Des practice until she gets it,â he said.
So I did. Today (which is good timing because the show is tomorrow), when weâd finished going over all the steps in all of the dances, I high-fived Des. âLooking good!â I said. âYouâve worked really hard, and I know youâre ready. Iâm proud of you,â I added.
When I said that, Des put her hand on her hip. It reminded me of the first time Iâd met her. âIâm proud of you, too,â she said.
I grinned. It was such a Des thing to say.
Saturday, March 1, 9:39 p.m.
Big night!
Tonight was the dance show at the community center, and it was amazing.
The girls on the dance team and all of the girls who were performing got to the auditorium early. As I was helping Des into her costume, I could tell she was nervous.
âI look like Iâve been playing dress-up in my motherâs closet.â She gestured to her costume, which hung on her small frame, and then looked around at some of the more developed girls who filled out their costumes better than she did.
This was a topic I could help her on. I stuck out my own small chest. âIâm right there with you, sister,â I said.
She looked down at my little boobs and cracked up. I was just happy I could help her relax. As I was putting her makeup on, we could see from our spot backstage that the auditorium was filling up fast. âStanding room only,â Des said.
I knew it was code speak for Iâm scared out of my mind.
I wrapped my arm tightly around her. âYouâre going to be great!â I reminded her how hard sheâd worked. When the music started and it was time for the girls to line up on stage for the opening number, Des squeezed my hand. âYou got it,â I mouthed as she went with the other girls to take her place.
The opening number with all of the girls was pretty smooth. Des slid a few times when she should have shuffled, and once she went left when she should have gone right, but she wasnât the only one who made a few missteps, and honestly, they were pretty minor. When Des came backstage, her eyes met mine. Ms. Baumann had drilled it into the girls that there was to be no talking backstage between numbers, so I gave her a thumbs-up. She knew sheâd done her part.
The rest of the show went well too. Des was in one more dance, and then everyone went back on stage for the finale. When it was over, the crowd went crazy. Iâve never heard so much clapping or cheering. The applause went on for a long time. I could see the girls on stage doing curtsies and bows and grinning like theyâd just performed on Broadway. It was awesome seeing them all so happy. What happened after the show was cool too. âIâm a star! Iâm a big, shiny star!!â Des screamed when she came backstage.
âI donât know about the big part,â I said.
Des threw her arms around me and squeezed hard. It was a big hug for a little girl. âYouâre the best dance teacher ever,â she said, ignoring my last comment.
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