365 Days by KE Payne

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    Saturday 21 April
     
     
    Felt a bit mean ’cos I’ve hardly spoken to Alice at all over the Easter holidays, so rang her and asked her if she wanted to come round. She came round after lunch and asked me if I’d gotten her postcard from Scotland (err nope!). I felt doubly mean ’cos I hadn’t even noticed that she’d not been around.
     
    Anyway, she’d been staying in a caravan for five days near Edinburgh and told me a really funny tale of how her mum had walked down a slipway and slipped (very apt) into the sea which luckily for her was just going out, and how she hadn’t been able to get up again and how Alice and her dad had had to go into the water to get her out (Alice’s mother is size 20—I would have thought it would have taken a couple of strong sailors with a winch and pulley to hoist her out, but never mind) and then how her mum then couldn’t walk properly for the rest of the holiday ’cos she’d pulled a muscle in her leg.
     
    Alice asked me what I’d been up to over the last week while she’d been away. I could hardly tell her that I’d spent just about every waking hour either with Hannah or thinking about her, so instead I just made up some rubbish about doing boring stuff at home and getting work ready for school next week.
    Sunday 22 April
     
     
    Mum asked me if I wanted to go to church with her again this morning. This is just ’cos I happened to go once with her, like, months ago! Now she thinks I wanna be a church-goer!
     
    I said no, primarily ’cos I’d be in a holy place and all I’d do is have unholy thoughts of flinging Hannah over the font and kissing her face off.
     
    I’m going to hell in a handcart.
    Monday 23 April
     
     
    Back to school! Groaaaaaaaan. Why do the holidays go so fast?
     
    Alice kept us all entertained at lunchtime with tales of her mum in Scotland, which was just as funny as when she told me on Saturday. Was looking at Hannah and she looked straight back at me so I smiled weakly at her and she smiled back at me, which made me feel squishy inside. I hope I didn’t look too stupid.
    Tuesday 24 April
     
     
    HRBH has become fixated with her look. She asked me tonight if her jeans made her bum look big and I told her no, and that her bum was big anyway. She threw a book at me and stomped out of the lounge. I thought honesty was supposed to be the best policy??
    Wednesday 25 April
     
     
    Was sitting in room 3b with Caroline and Matty at morning break when Hannah walked in with Marcie. My heart practically jumped into my mouth when I saw her! I can’t believe how much I fancy her (Hannah I mean, not Marcie. Eww!) Hannah walks into the room and it’s like all of a sudden I don’t see or hear anyone else anymore; my whole attention instantly becomes focused on her, and it’s like no one else matters. I try reaaally hard not to let my emotions show in front of her, but it’s so darned difficult!
     
    She’s also quite touchy-feely, which I’m finding kinda difficult. If we’re walking down the corridor together she’ll link her arm in mine, and it makes me feel all funny inside. I do the same thing (link arms) with my other friends, but it doesn’t make me feel funny like it does when I do it with Hannah. She also touches me quite a lot, like, when we’re talking, she’ll touch my arm and I like it, but it embarrasses me too.
     
    She hugged me today and I got all flustered. I could feel the warmth of her body against mine and it made me go all silly. Part of me wishes she wouldn’t do it—but I can hardly ask her not to ’cos it’ll make her suspicious, right? The last thing I want to do is for her to find out I like her— in that way —’cos she’ll run a mile and I’ll lose her as a friend. Why is life so bloody complicated?
    Thursday 26 April
     
     
    HRBH has gone on a diet. She’s joined the local Weight Watchers group. This is the funniest thing I’ve heard in ages. She’s gone completely over the top as usual