A Change of Needs by Nate Allen Page B

hid it. She and Frank had that chemistry necessary to a successful marriage, and if he had not fucked around and got caught , they might very well have still been married. She had that fire, and he was at least interested in trying to tend to it, and that was what she needed at the heart of it, some necessary attention, and an outlet. It was not a question of quantity but quality for her at that point in her life. And as our story evolves, Jake may well have been his own worst enemy where that was concerned. Even after the divorce she behaved conservatively in her sexual endeavors, she didn’t have a husband, but she had two young boys, and they were the center of her world. A lot of women have a bad boy fantasy, and the preacher’s daughter had a vivid one, but she found that the kind of men she was attracting weren’t particularly interested in helping her raise her kids, and that quickly became a priority for her in finding a life-partner as she recognized the difficulty in doing it primarily alone presented …and then she met Glen.
    He was by no means the bad boy type, as the Docker’s and Wallabees betrayed any intention he might’ve had of trying to present that rebel with a pocket protector image . And outside of the college community not a recognizable authority figure, and sadly she didn’t find him all that sexually attractive. So “what the fuck?” you’re saying, well, he was however brilliant, seemingly deep and insightful, and that had an intrinsic and compensating value for an equally intelligent woman, who at the time was in need of some guidance in things he knew much about, and she found his mind very attractive. But she couldn’t fuck his mind, and his body seemed less interested and more uncooperative with time. It had to be the fact that she intimidated him. In a pragmatic, rational, personal business sense however, the man made a perfect choice for a husband, and she would be the one to suggest the idea, since he seemed to lack the initiative to do so.
    They were married a year and a half when Natalie came along, and while she was an unexpected surprise to both, they delighted in the beautiful addition to the family. But theirs was never a love affair, it simply served a purpose in her life at the time. “ He was a wonderful husband…they were happily married… ” you begin to think that initial park bench portrayal should have come with “air quotes,” a disclaimer, or some fine print that read:
    “Wink* Wink* …he’s a really nice guy, and I truly care about him, but after I’ve raised these kids I’m gettin’ the hell out of here!!” ….
    “In the meantime I’ve got an itch, can you scratch it for me? And would you please use your penis, thank you.”
    So there you have a picture to begin with, a hot thirty-something wife married to an average looking, academic nerdish fellow. We’ve all seen the couples and thought “Damn that dude must be hung like a mule,” and he may well have been, but if so, it was apparently so big he couldn’t produce enough blood to fill it… And it’s doubtful that was actually the case as Jake would routinely hit bottom …and he was not of the farm animal variety. It was initially that simple, which brings Rae to this evening’s party for two. As noted in her first email to Jake, she was more “realistic,” about it this time, which now seemed an allusion to the fact she had fallen outside the marriage on two previous occasions, and was realistically intent on doing so again. And this represented a new endeavor for her, an attempt to cultivate an ongoing extra-marital sexual relationship, without baggage, unnecessary drama, built on a level of trust and communication, and no expectations or attachments… Goddamn , try saying that with a straight face… Friendship was not an integral part, only “friendliness,” and she thought Jake the perfect man for the part, and he thought himself to be in agreement. But in the best laid plans of