ever afraid of monsters hiding under the bed? And when you finally found the courage to check, you discovered your fear was the product of a too-vivid imagination?â
âSo you no longer believe Edgar Fane is a monster.â
âLetâs just say Iâve come to understand that some monsters know how to disguise themselves more discreetly than others. His friends are mostly sycophants. A few tried to be kind. I can hold my own with them.â
âAh.â This time they watched the rain in companionable silence. âSomethingâs still troubling you,â Dev eventually observed.
âYes.â Her shoulders lifted in a nervous shrug. âYou really are very perceptive. Umâ¦would you mind if I ask you something?â When he hummed a lazy sound of assent Miss Lang cleared her throat, fiddled with the ends of her shawl, then shared softly, âI donât know why, but for some reason it matters that you not think the worst of me. A month ago I didnât know you existed, but nowâ¦â She ran her finger over the chair finial, color staining her cheeks.
âNever mind. This is silly. It must be the weather. Rainy days have always made me introspective. But that doesnât mean I shouldââ
âI feel the same way, about rainy days,â Dev interrupted. Reaching down, he let his hand hover over hersfor a moment, and when she didnât flinch away he gave her restless fingers a reassuring squeeze. âWe have more in common than you realize, Miss Lang. Come now, tell me whatâs troubling you. Today I promise not to bite.â
Chapter Eleven
O nly a flicker of a smile appeared. âMy last name isnât really Lang.â Above the white collar of the shirtwaist her throat muscles stretched taut. âI would prefer to not reveal my surname right now. If youâ¦could you call me Thea? Thatâs my Christian name. Iâitâs unconventional, but here at Saratoga the unconventional seems to be the accepted standard of behavior. My name is really Theodora, but most times I prefer Thea. Theodora sounds too formal, when the man Iâm talking to hasâ¦seen me at my worst.â
In the muted, rain-drenched world her brown eyes had darkened to the color of wet pine bark. Automatically Dev registered the subtleties of her body that conveyed truth tellingâslightly expanded pupils, crinkly eyes accompanying her shy smile, leaning slightly toward himâeven as he filed away the revelation that she was afraid to tell him her last name. âThea. It suits you. A strong name, and a deep one. Family name?â
âNo.â
He lifted an eyebrow. âHmm. Touched one of those chords you donât want to play, did I? No, donât turn all tense on meâ¦Thea. Yeah, that fits, much better than MissPickford, or Miss Lang. To even things up, call me Devlin. My grandmother was Irish. You may have noticed when the sun shines on my hair thereâs a wee bit oâ red? But thatâs all the Irish heritage I received, besides the name. My grandmother died when I was two so I donât remember anything else about the woman responsible for naming me.â
âYour parents didnât choose your name?â
âThey couldnât agree, so they asked her to.â He could hear the curtness in his own voice, but Thea merely nodded her head, that wistful aura hovering around her again, twisting his heartstrings. âWhat else did you want to ask me about?â he added quickly. Let it be Edgar Fane, or something about the vertigo. Or the weather, for crying out loud. Justâno prying questions where too much honesty might be demanded.
With this woman, he should have known better.
âHave you ever made one mistake,â she said, the words emerging pensive and slow, âand no matter how hard you try to make up for it, the rest of your life crumbles a piece at a time, until youâre left with nothing but