A Trick of the Light by Louise Penny Page A

it.”
    Olivier paused, and narrowed his eyes again.
    “I could see everyone inside. I could see the logs burning in the fireplace. I could see the frost on the windowpanes.”
    As he spoke Clara could see them too, through his eyes.
    “I haven’t even told Gabri this, I didn’t want to hurt him, didn’t want him to take it the wrong way. When we were walking toward the bistro I almost stopped. Almost asked them to drive me somewhere else, anywhere else.”
    “Why?” Clara’s voice had dropped to a whisper.
    “Because I was terrified. More afraid than I’d ever been in my life. More afraid even than in prison.”
    “Afraid of what?”
    Once again Olivier felt the bitter cold scraping his cheeks. Heard his feet shrieking on the hard snow. And saw the warm bistro through the mullioned windows. His friends and neighbors over drinks, talking. Laughing. The fire in the grate.
    Safe and warm.
    They on the inside. He on the outside, looking in.
    And the closed door between him and everything he ever wanted.
    He’d almost passed out from terror, and had he been able to find his voice he felt sure he’d have shouted at Gamache to take him back to Montréal. Drop him at some anonymous fleabag. Where he might not be accepted, but he wouldn’t be rejected.
    “I was afraid you wouldn’t want me back. That I wouldn’t belong anymore.”
    Olivier sighed and dropped his head. His eyes stared at the ground, taking in each blade of grass.
    “Oh, God, Olivier,” said Clara, dropping her shandy onto the newspapers, where it fell over, soaking the pages. “Never.”
    “Are you sure?” he asked, turning to her. Searching her face for reassurance.
    “Absolutely. We really have let it go.”
    He was quiet for a moment. They both watched as Ruth left her small cottage on the far side of the village green, opened her gate, and limped across to the other bench. Once there she looked at them and lifted her hand.
    Please, thought Olivier. Give me the finger. Say something rude. Call me a fag, a queer. Dick-head.
    “I know you say that, but I don’t really think you have.” He watched Ruth, but spoke to Clara. “Let it go, I mean.”
    Ruth looked at Olivier. Hesitated. And waved.
    Olivier paused, then nodded. Turning back to Clara he gave her a weary smile.
    “Thank you for listening. If you ever want to talk about Lillian, or anything, you know where to find me.”
    He waved, not toward the bistro, but toward Gabri, who was busy ignoring customers and chatting away with a friend. Olivier watched him with a smile.
    Yes, thought Clara. Gabri is his home.
    She picked up her sodden newspapers and began to walk across the village green when Olivier called after her. She turned and he caught up with her.
    “Here. You spilled yours.” He held out his shandy.
    “No, that’s OK. I’ll get something at Myrna’s.”
    “Please?” he asked.
    She looked at the partly drunk shandy, then at him. His kind, beseeching eyes. And she took the glass.
    “ Merci, mon beau Olivier.”
    As she approached the village shops she thought about what Olivier had said.
    And wondered if he was right. Maybe they hadn’t forgiven him.
    Just then two men came out of the bistro and made their way slowly up rue du Moulin, toward the inn and spa at the top of the hill. She turned to watch them, surprised. That they were there. And that they were together.
    Then her gaze shifted. To her own home. And a solitary figure standing by the corner of the house. Also watching the two men.
    It was Chief Inspector Gamache.
    *   *   *
    Gamache watched François Marois and André Castonguay slowly make their way up the hill.
    They didn’t seem in conversation, but they did seem companionable. Comfortable.
    Had it always been so? Gamache wondered. Or had it been different decades ago, when both were young turks just starting out. Fighting for territory, fighting for influence, fighting for artists.
    Perhaps the two men had always liked and respected each other.