âJerk? You? Surely you jest.â
âAll right, donât rub it in,â he grumbled. âIâve admitted my shortcomings.â
âDo continue. Iâm dying to hear all about what a toad you are.â
Her eyes sparkled with mischief and amusement. Heâd never wanted to kiss her more than he did right now. Instead he found himself telling her stuff heâd never tell a woman he planned to take to bed.
âBettina didnât pose a challenge. That sounds bad but when I met her, I was devoting all my time to making my business a success. It was exciting and exhilarating. I exceeded even my wildest expectations. Everything was falling into place at the speed of light. All that was missing in my mind to complete the image of perfection I had built up was a wife and a family. Perfect house in the suburbs. Iâd come home after a hectic day and sheâd have dinner waiting. The kids would all be bathed and well behaved. Even the dog would be theepitome of good behavior. I wantedâstill wantâa woman whoâll put me first.â
Celia snorted, covered her mouth and then dissolved into hoots of laughter.
He regarded her dubiously. âI do believe youâre mocking me.â
âMocking you?â She wheezed between words and tears gathered in the corners of her eyes. âOh my, Evan. You do dream big, donât you?â
âWell, it was a good fantasy while it lasted,â he grumbled. âI looked around and there was Bettina. I didnât have time to figure out what my ideal woman was. I wanted my perfect life then and I didnât want to wait. So I asked her to marry me, she said yes, I gave her a ring and that was that.â
âAnd yet here you are. With me. The fake fiancée.â
He scowled ferociously at her only for her to dissolve into laughter again.
âOkay, so what happened? Other than Mitchell stepping in and being an overindulged twit.â
He liked this woman. She was good for his ego even when she was tearing it down.
âBettina wanted to set an immediate date. She had a grand wedding planned. Even had the honeymoon destination picked out. She littered my office with brochures. Hell, she even had our childrenâs names picked out.â
âI would have thought given your fantasy that you would have eaten that up with a spoon,â she pointed out.
âYeah, so did I. Only I found myself backing off. I kept making excuses to extend the engagement. I was busy. This deal had to take priority. That deal needed immediate attention. Before I knew it, we had been engaged a year with a wedding scheduled another year beyond that. And moreover I was content with that.â
âDid you never love her?â Celia asked quietly.
âNo. No, I didnât. Which is why I canât really blame her for wanting out. Our marriage would have been a disaster just assoon as I figured out the reality didnât live up to the fantasy Iâd created in my mind. I just didnât think sheâd dump me for Mitchell or that Mitchell would have been poaching on my territory.â
Celia winced. âYeah, I can understand that.â
âI found them in bed, you know. How clichéd is that? The sad thing is, when I found them together in my bed, I just laughed, because to me it was just the next step in an already farcical relationship. I tossed them out of my apartment and washed my hands of them both.â
Celiaâs expression grew thoughtful. âHmm, so you donât necessarily object to the fact that she found someone else. Or that she cheated on you. Just who she indulged herself with.â
Evan nodded and rubbed the back of his neck to ease some of the tension and fatigue. Just talking about it raised his ire all over again.
âYeah, itâs stupid I know. I mean, she could have cheated on me with my business partner, or my vice president or, hell, even my driver. I wouldnât have cared. I