Borrowing Trouble by Kade Boehme

never-knew-it-could-be-like-this, need.
                  “Oh, Jay,” Landon moaned into their kisses.
                  “I don’t know what… I don’t know.” Jay really had no clue. What to do, how to go about this, why he was coming apart like this. But he couldn’t stop it.
                  “I’ve got you,” Landon promised.
                  Landon dropped to his knees and Jay had never seen such a glorious thing. Landon gave a quick tug and Jay’s cock fell out of his sweats, long and hard, the tip red and leaking.
                  “Fuck,” Landon groaned, kissing the head. Jay’s entire body quaked. “This is beautiful, Jay.” And with that, he took Jay in his mouth. His lips worked Jay over, hands fondling and stroking. Jay had never particularly cared for blowjobs, could take them or leave them. Not so when Landon did it. He thought he might die if Landon ever stopped.
                  “Jesus, Landon. Jesus fucking Christ.”
                  Landon looked up through long, blond lashes, watching Jay as Jay came undone much more quickly than he ever had. This wasn’t his usual slowly coaxing out of an orgasm, the sometimes inability to even get close that had made his ex insecure sometimes. This was a tingling, blessed, pulsing hum in his body. Landon rolled Jay’s balls with his hand and Jay could feel Landon’s own cock fall out against his bare legs, his sweats having long ago fallen to his ankles.
                  Landon started grunting, shooting vibrations up Jay’s cock. Jay looked down and was shocked at how delicious it was to see Landon pleasuring himself as his pink lips stretched over Jay’s fat cock.
                  Landon suddenly grew more voracious, whimpering, and Jay gave into the urge to run his fingers through Landon’s hair. It was so smooth. Landon looked up, almost adoringly at Jay, then his eyes fluttered shut as he orgasmed and shot his cum on Jay’s shin.
                  And Jay was fucking done. His body bunched up and he practically hollered as his balls, which Landon jiggled with the tips of his fingers, pulled up. “Fuck, I’m cumming. I’m cumming.”
                  And he did. He lost it. That door in his mind he’d been shutting off, the one he hadn’t even known was closed, blew off the fucking hinges and all those synapses fired as his cock emptied into Landon’s mouth. Landon hummed his pleasure as he swallowed everything Jay had to give.
                  Jay let go of Landon’s head and Landon came up to standing, looking uncertain. All Jay could come up with as his body still sang was, “I didn’t know.” He said the words in wonder, in awe of what had just happened. This felt almost like a religious experience. “I didn’t,” Jay said. And he was scared shitless, so he pulled Landon in for a kiss to shut up his mind and keep him from asking questions. He wasn’t ready for any shame to settle in or to give up at the moment.
                  Tasting himself on Landon’s tongue was heady, and knowing Landon had swallowed his load had his cock trying to stay hard. Fuck.
                  When their lips parted finally, Landon lay his forehead on Jay’s and Jay wanted to freak out. But a tear slid down Landon’s face from his closed eyes.
                  “Please don’t hate me,” Landon whispered, keeping his eyes closed like a kid hiding from the big bad wolf.
                  Jay gave in to his instinct to pull Landon in. “I don’t. I don’t.” He didn’t. He was fucking terrified and confused and lost and so many fucking things. But he didn’t hate Landon. But they’d have to wait until his brain was back online to sort this out. So for now, he’d just hold Landon, because it might be the only time he did it without hating