and you can bear the brychan over it.'
'I'm well enough,' said Meriet, submitting almost shamefacedly, and subsiding with a sigh into his folded arms again. 'I ... I do thank you - brother!' he ended as an awkward afterthought, and very dubiously, as if the form of address did no justice to what was in his mind, though he knew it to be the approved one here.
'That came out of you doubtfully,' remarked Cadfael judicially, 'like biting on a sore tooth. There are other relationships. Are you still sure it's a brother you want to be?'
'I must," blurted Meriet, and turned his face morosely away.
Now why, wondered Cadfael, banging on the door of the cell for the porter to open and let him out, why must the one thing of meaning he says be said only at the end, when he's settled and eased, and it would be shame to plague him further? Not: I do! or: I will! but: I must! Must implies a resolution enforced, either by another's will, or by an overwhelming necessity. Now who has willed this sprig into the cloister, or what force of circumstance has made him choose this way as the best, the only one left open to him?
Cadfael came out from Compline that night to find Hugh waiting for him at the gatehouse.
'Walk as far as the bridge with me. I'm on my way home, but I hear from the porter here that you're off on an errand for the lord abbot tomorrow, so you'll be out of my reach day-long. You'll have heard about the horse?'
'That you've found him, yes, nothing more. We've been all too occupied with our own miscreants and crimes this day to have much time or thought for anything outside,' owned Cadfael ruefully. 'No doubt you've been told about that.' Brother Albin, the porter, was the most consummate gossip in the enclave. 'Our worries go side by side and keep pace, it seems, but never come within touch of each other. That's strange in itself. And now you find the horse miles away to the north, or so I heard.'
They passed through the gate together and turned left towards the town, under a chill, dim sky of driving clouds, though on the ground there was no more than a faint breeze, hardly enough to stir the moist, sweet, rotting smells of autumn. The darkness of trees on the right of the road, the flat metallic glimmer of the mill-pond on their left, and the scent and sound of the river ahead, between them and the town.
'Barely a couple of miles short of Whitchurch,' said Hugh, 'where he had meant to pass the night, and have an easy ride to Chester next day.' He recounted the whole of it; Cadfael's thoughts were always a welcome illumination from another angle. But here their two minds moved as one.
'Wild enough woodland short of the place,' said Cadfael sombrely, 'and the mosses close at hand. If it was done there, whatever was done, and the horse, being young and spirited, broke away and could not be caught, then the man may be fathoms deep. Past finding. Not even a grave to dig.'
'It's what I've been thinking myself,' agreed Hugh grimly. 'But if I have such footpads living wild in my shire, how is it I've heard no word of them until now?'
'A venture south out of Cheshire? You know how fast they can come and go. And even where your writ runs, Hugh, the times breed changes. But if these were masterless men, they were no skilled hands with horses. Any outlaw worth his salt would have torn out an arm by the shoulder rather than lose a beast like that one. I went to have a look at him in the stables,' owned Cadfael, 'when I was free. And the silver on his harness ... only a miracle could have got it away from them once they clapped eyes on it. What the man himself had on him can hardly have been worth more than horse and harness together.'
'If they're preying on travellers there,' said Hugh, 'they'll know just where to slide a weighted man into the peat-hags, where they're hungriest. But I've men there searching, whether or no. There are some among the natives there can tell if a pool has been fed recently - will you believe it? But
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