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âWitnesses arenât always reliable anyway,â he said, as though doubting my ability to tell night from day, no doubt recognizing me as yet another teenage zombie. I must have smelled like a distillery. But at least his voice was kind. You feel grateful if the police treat you with the least amount of courtesy.
They interviewed a dozen other people, and everyone knew zero. Some of the know-nothings probably knew what had happened, but people looked at me with respect, as though I had refused to tell what I had seen.
âThis is insane,â I told Lani as we rode home on the bus. âThey admire me because Iâm protecting someone probably no one knows anyway.â
âItâs just drugs,â she said. âItâs just drug money. It has nothing to do with us. Are you upset at what you saw?â
âI didnât see anything.â But in fact, I was shaken. All day, I had imagined the cherry jam on the guyâs shirt.
âThereâs too much violence in the world,â she said, looking into my eyes. âTry not to be upset.â
I got off the bus at my usual stop, and did not see him until I nearly ran into him. Even then, I did not know who it was, although he obviously knew me.
âI expected you to be taller by now,â said a man with a military haircut, and a square jaw. He had broad shoulders, and wore a dress shirt with rolled-up sleeves, and dark slacks, a look I associate with narcotics detectives.
âI expected you to be better looking,â I said, but I didnât know yet who it was.
âWe have to talk.â
I knew then who it was.
âActually, youâre looking good, Jack. I guess military school is just the thing for you. You look like a linebacker.â
âIâll buy you a cup of coffee.â He motioned with his head. âLetâs cross the street.â
His words were friendly, but his manner made it hard to argue. I had no choice. Jack had always been mean. Now he looked much older, and more like a drill sergeant than a football player. His neck was beefy, and his jaw muscles bunched like biceps as he chewed gum, or maybe a bite out of someone he had taken on the way to meet me. I felt tired and empty, and I wanted a drink.
He pointed to a booth, and I sat. He brought back a cardboard tray holding Styrofoam cups, and two glistening doughnuts.
âItâs nice to be back in the old neighborhood,â he said, looking at the interior of Dunkinâ Donuts as though he wanted to burn it. âYou miss a place like this.â He found the wad of chewing gum in the back of his mouth, and retrieved it. It was about the size of a dolphinâs brain. He dropped it with a regretful expression into the ashtray. âBut you donât miss much else. What are you going to do?â
I stared at my doughnut, the exact twin of his, except mine was not ravaged. âDo?â
âWith your life.â
âThis is a pretty serious question.â I laughed. âTo ask someone. All of a sudden.â
âI can do a hundred and twenty pushups.â
âHey, thatâs great.â
âYou might say, âWhat does that have to do with life in general?ââ
âThatâs not what I said. I said it was great.â
His forefinger was smeared with sugar and fat. He stuck it at me like he wanted me to suck it. âI have turned myself around. I see what I want, and I see how to get it. Iâve worked hard, Peter, and it wasnât easy. But Iâm proud. You might say, âAngelaâs brother has turned into a total jerk.â But Iâm going to join the Navy and Iâm going to go to college, and Iâm going to be a naval officer, and I feel very, very good about that.â
I opened my mouth, and shut it.
âI know this is really a jackass way to present myself after months of being gone, and I hardly knew you anyway. But thereâs a future out