might still be in the CD player. My legs were suddenly itching to dance.
âOkay,â I said quietly, feeling that any louder might break the spell.
Sashaâs eyes did their own little dance. âCome on, then.â
A few moments later, I was moving to the music that weâd just used in gym club, only now it wasnât a cool-down exercise, it was ballet. I was trying out the steps Iâd seen Abi and Olivia dancing the day before, then breaking into my own choreography that Iâd worked out. They didnât quite match the music in the same way, but it still worked.
Sasha had turned the volume up high. She insisted that no one would be able to hear, since there was no one around anyway, and I was grateful to her because sheâd made me relax for the first time in a long time, and it felt good to have Sasha closer to my secret private world. Not so lonely any more.
Then just when I was doing an échappé sauté, I felt that icy feeling and I knew without looking that Sasha wasnât the only one watching me. I could see that she was standing tensely and her eyes were big with alarm, so I stopped abruptly and my own eyes flew to the window. There was no one there and I wondered for a second if I was mistaken, but then I remembered the little window, the one Iâd used myself only the day before. Of course, I couldnât see properly, so I immediately turned to Sasha and noticed how pink her cheeks were.
âIs there someone watching me? Why do you look so embarrassed?â
She bit her lip, and her eyes did the smallest of darts towards the door. A second later the door opened and in came Kate with Miss Morgan. I stared at them, not knowing what to say or do.
âSorry, Iz,â said Sasha faintly, staring at the floor.
âYou meanâ¦youâ¦knew they were watching?â I managed to stutter.
She didnât reply, because Miss Morgan was talking hurriedly. âIzzy, I donât think you did yourself justice the other day, you know. Youâre really very, very talented.â
Suddenly I felt completely trapped, with nowhere to go. Even Sasha had been a traitor. My throat seemed to be closing and I knew I was going to cry. And then I did. I couldnât help it.
Kate came rushing across to me and put her arm round my shoulder. âHey! Whatâs all this? Youâre great. I just had to tell Miss Morgan to come to you , as you wouldnât come to her .â She patted my arm, then let her hand drop, but she was trying to get me to look at her and I felt pathetic and babyish.
âLook, Izzy,â Miss Morgan cut in. âI know you get very nervous about dancing in front of people, but you shouldnât, you know. You should be proud of yourself, with all this talent. You really areâ¦exceptional.â
Was I? Did she mean it? The words were starting to feel as though I ought to be believing them, but how could I? If it was true that I was exceptional then I would have got into The Royal Ballet School, wouldnât I? The path that led to my dream coming true.
Miss Morgan was looking at me gravely. âI really would like it if youâd agree to help out the senior ballet club, Izzy, because it looks as though Abiâs strain is something more than that, and Iâve just seen how much of their dance you seem to have absorbed. Itâs incredible. I know youâre good enough to join the group and the girls will be delighted. Really.â
âEspecially me!â said Kate. âSay youâll do it, Izzy. Please!â
I looked at Sasha. She was silent. No wonder. She must have still been feeling embarrassed. But that was nothing compared to what I was feeling, because something really awful had occurred to me. Maybe it wasnât just that Sasha knew I was being watched. Maybe it was worse than that, and sheâd set me up deliberately. I just hoped and prayed that she hadnât. Best friends donât do that to each