Dirty Rush by Taylor Bell

next twenty minutes or so. I honestly didn’t know how much coke to do, so I just kept partaking.
    I ended up doing too much.
    â€œSo, like, the weirdest thing to me, Meg, is that, honestly, I think you’re kind of an awesome person. And I’d like to think that you think I’m awesome too?”
    â€œNo, I, like, totally agree.”
    â€œYou agree that you’re an awesome person or that I’m an awesome person?” I lit a cigarette and inhaled. It tasted delicious.
    â€œNo, bitch! I agree that you’re an awesome person and I’m, like, so glad that we finally met each other.”
    â€œOh, good, good. Me too. Do you want a drag?” I handed her the Marlboro Light.
    Meg took a long drag and looked around the balcony, surveying the scene. Everyone had gone back in the house, so Meg and I shared the couch and the cigarette.
    â€œI never wanted to be in a sorority,” I blurted out.
    â€œI know, babe.”
    â€œI still kind of don’t.”
    â€œI know, babe.”
    â€œIs that bad to say?”
    â€œNo, not at all. You think I don’t fucking know that about you? You’re different.”
    â€œI know you didn’t mean that as a compliment, but I’mgonna take it as a compliment because I think that’s actually, like, a really nice thing to say to someone.”
    â€œBut sometimes we can see BZ qualities in a girl before she can see them in herself,” Meg said. “We knew that we needed to continue the legacy and when we saw you and talked to you we just went in. We went in hard because we had to have you. It’s actually really fucking simple.”
    â€œAnd I really appreciate that you guys did that, and I totally get why, but honestly I don’t know what to do.”
    â€œObviously you don’t know what to do. You just got to college, there are forty million decisions to be made. It can be overwhelming. I’m overwhelmed by how overwhelming it must be for you.”
    â€œExactly. You get it.”
    â€œI do,” Meg said, putting out the cigarette.
    â€œI cannot believe I’m saying this, but I’m so glad I met you guys. Like, literally, I don’t know what I’d do for friends if I hadn’t come to that first party. Like, I want you guys to be my friends, you know.” I could hear myself speaking but I had no control over what I was saying. And I felt fantastic.
    â€œDuh, I know. And let me tell you what will happen if you don’t rush: You’ll eventually meet a fat friend, a half-Jewish/half-Asian friend, and you’ll end up dating a guy named Topher who is too short for you.”
    â€œNo, you’re probably right.”
    â€œI know. You look hot tonight.”
    â€œSo do you.”
    â€œWe should probably go inside.”
    â€œI’m down.”
    We stood up, dusted off any couch crumbs that may have stuck to our dresses, tousled our hair, and stomped our way back into the party. We may have been fucked up, but I felt spectacular and told myself to try to remember this moment because it was one of the best nights at college yet. Possibly one of the best nights of my life. Period.

7.
COLLEGE GIRLS ARE CONSTANTLY COMPLAINING ABOUT . . . EVERYTHING
    â€œH onestly, I’m kinda shocked you’re pledging BZ. I mean, it’s great, but I’m still shocked, considering the look of disappointment on your face when I first told you I was in a fraternity.”
    Jack and I were on our date. The one he’d convinced me to go on. He’d picked me up in his car and took to me to Kawa Sushi, which, according to Meg, was the nicest place for a date in town.
    â€œBelieve me.” I smiled. “No one expected this less than me. But I like the girls and they’re nice to me. They made all of the bullshit rushing stuff so easy. I figured I would just give it a try and see what happens. This is actually pretty ugly, the more I look at it,” I