Fallen Angel (The List #3) by N K Love Page A

into one. I pull away first, kissing the tip of her
nose as she bats her eyelashes at me. We rest our foreheads and rub our noses
together, slowly from side to side.
     
    “God, Beth, the places you reach.” She glances
down and wiggles her eyebrows, sucking in her bottom lip. “—yes, there, but
also here—”
     
    I move to overlap her hand and bring it to my head,
tapping our fingers on my temple. She strokes down my face as I continue.
     
    “—and in here.”
     
    I move our hands from my cheek to my chest, my
heart. Her eyes fill with emotion and the cute little dimple on her chin
quivers.
     
    “Those better be tears of happiness.”
     
    She nods as she lets out a half laugh-half sob,
causing the tears to tumble but they don’t keep falling. Like a torch, her sincere
smile lights up my darkness in a way that I’m not used to. So I dare to hope that
I’m man enough to make the right decisions.
     
    “Jax, I can’t believe we’re really together. I
mean, you are definitely sure? Because I know it’s a huge step for you, for
both of us.”
     
    “This is a surprise for me too but I think we
both need to get better at following our instincts and not looking back. I’m
working on it. I know you still have unanswered questions but I still have some
business, some issues, I need to deal with before I can explain more to you.
Also—” I tilt her chin up so she can see I genuinely mean this. “—I’m under no
illusions that you’ll even want me once you get to know me, properly. I
wouldn’t blame you or hold anything against you, I promise.”
     
    “Okay, my turn. This unexplainable, powerful bond
we have—I know you feel it too—it deserves us both to give it our all. I’ve
been willing to for a while but I would never have pushed you. The fact that
you’ve put your faith in us, shows me that you recognise this isn’t something
we can walk away from easily. If we get hurt, so be it. And I’m not being
flippant. I’m saying this because I know that whatever happens, it’ll be worth
it. I totally understand that when you let me in—all the way in—your fear is
that you’re gonna scare the shit out of me and I’ll run. But maybe my fear is that
you’re gonna get bored with me, with having just one girl—”
     
    “Not gonna happen. I couldn’t. I won’t.”
     
    “And that’s exactly my response to your fear too;
not gonna happen. I couldn’t. I won’t.” I get it. “But neither of us know what’ll
happen so all we can do is be ourselves and be together. Unfiltered honesty.
When you’re ready to talk, I’ll be here.” I kiss her nose again and wrap my
arms around her bare back. “Now let’s go to bed—” Eyeing the semi setting to
work between us, she grins “—to sleep! Down boy, just a few more days, I
promise.”
     
    “Good, because I can’t wait to wake my
girlfriend up with my head buried in her pussy.”

Chapter Six
     
    Monday 20 th April 2015
     
    8:37am
     
    Beth
     
    “ C onniving bitch.”
     
    I mutter to myself in the kitchen as I remove
the note Jax left me on the fridge last week; ‘B, thanks for #18, I look
forward to returning the favour. Back about 11:30. You, me, a smoke and a film
sounds good to me Angel. P.S. No chick flicks! G x’
     
    Angel. That’s how Carmel knew.
     
    My irritation soon disperses, when I re-read
his words and smile. Jax told me not to worry about her so I won’t. Instead, I
focus on his lovely handwriting and smile at his ‘#18’ reference, blushing to
myself at the recollection.
     
    Retrieving my phone from my robe pocket, I open
my organiser app and scroll through my Fuck It list. Ah-ha, there it is, the
mighty number 23. Go Beth!
     
    Fuck It List
     
    1. Blowjob
    2. Handjob
    3. Cunnilingus
    4. Sex in a workplace
    5. Sex in a car
    6. Sex in the shower
    7. Multiple orgasm
    8. Get a tattoo
    9. Get a piercing
    10. Sex on the beach
    11. Phone sex
    12. Cybersex / Sexting
    13. Tantric sex
    14. Get stoned
    15. Use food /