it.
âSorry Iâm late,â I murmured, reaching for my apron.
âI really need a waitress here at four,â Marty said. He glanced at the clock above the sink. Four-twenty.
âThat clock is fast,â I said, avoiding his eyes.
âIâm very disappointed in you,â he said, tossing the rolled-up magazine onto the counter.
âSorry,â I muttered. What else could I say?
âI know youâre a bright girl,â Marty continued, frowning at me. âSure, youâre quiet. Not much personality â¦â
You donât have to insult me because Iâm a few minutes late!
I thought angrily. But I let it pass.
âBut I expected you to be more responsible,â he continued.
How long is he going to scold me? I wondered. I already said I was sorry.
âIâI have to get Mrs. Jacklin her coffee,â I stammered.
Marty shook his head. âNo, you donât. Iâll get it. You stay here.â
He slid off the stool. Disappeared into the front for a few seconds. I heard the clink of coffee cups. Heard him say something to Mrs. Jacklin.
When he returned to the kitchen, his cheeks reddened again. He shut the kitchen door.
Uh-oh, I thought. This looks like bad news.
âIâm afraid I have to let you go,â he said. âIâm really sorry, Jasmine.â
âOh, wait. Pleaseââ I started. I really didnât wantto lose this job. âI wonât be late again, Mr. Dell. I promise.â
I sounded like a five-year-old. But I didnât care.
Marty shook his head. âBeing late is one thing, Jasmine,â he replied quietly. âBut where were you yesterday?â
âExcuse me?â My mouth dropped open.
âYou didnât show up at all yesterday,â he said, sighing. He picked up the magazine and rolled it tensely between his hands. âI had to run the place myself. And we were really busy.â
âYesterday?â I repeated. I suddenly felt sick. My legs felt weak. My throat tightened.
âYes. Where were you?â he demanded.
I stared at him. âUh â¦â I thought hard. Where was I yesterday afternoon? Where?
âI donât remember,â I told him.
His face twisted in disgust. âYou donât even have an excuse? Thatâs the best you can do?
You donât remember?
Why donât you tell me you were sick? Or that you had to take a test? Give me a good excuse, Jasmine.â
I shook my head. I felt dizzy. âBut ⦠really,â I insisted. âI really donât remember
where
I was yesterday afternoon.â I swallowed hard. âIn fact, I donât remember
anything
about yesterday,â I gasped. âNothing at all.â
Marty sighed. He took the apron from my hands. âHere. Iâve written you a check for what I owe you.â
I took the check from him without looking at it. The kitchen blurred. I was concentrating ⦠concentrating on yesterday.
Where was I? Where?
I had to get out of that kitchen. I had to go somewhere and think.
âGood-bye, Jasmine,â Marty said, slapping the magazine nervously against his leg. âIâm sorry it didnât work out. I really am.â
I mumbled something to him. I didnât even hear myself.
Then I floated back out to the restaurant to get my parka. Mrs. Jacklin offered a greeting as I passed her table. But I didnât reply.
I pulled the parka off the hook and stepped outside without putting it on.
âWhere was I yesterday?â I asked myself out loud.
Why canât I remember?
Whatâs wrong with me?
chapter 26
I n a frightened daze, I wandered across the campus. Past dark-uniformed police officers and groups of students huddled together, talking excitedly.
I found a table at the⦠back of the cafeteria in the Student Union, and sat down with a cup of coffee and a sweet roll. Sat down to think. To remember.
Start somewhere,
I instructed myself. Just try