something. Then she tries to storm back up to the front of the bus. Fortunately, we are making a turn and her balance is thrown. She plows into Kendall Kim, who, though pinned against the window, reminds her that his father is a lawyer. This time everyone in the back of the busâthe other losers like meâlaughs. Not as loudly, not as surely. It might even be nervous laughter. But it still counts as laughter. And the best part about it is that no one is laughing at me .
Itâs a tiny victory, one barely visible to the naked eye, but still I feel a little rush of hope.
WEDNESDAY AT LUNCH, Mandy walks in and slumps into her seat at the table. âSomeone stop me before I strangle Corbin Moon. He is so aggravating.â
She says this through lips that are especially black today, like she did a double dose of Sharpie. It also looks like she went outside the lines a little. âWhat did he do?â I ask.
âHe commented on my lips. He kind of tricked me,â she says, like sheâs a little embarrassed. âFirst, he goes, âWow, Mandy, thereâs something different about you today.â And the way he was saying it, I thought he was actually being cool for once. Then he tells me I look like I have a disease. This ignoring thing is really hard, Liv. I so wanted to tell him Iâd give him a black eye disease if he didnât shut up,â she says, balling up her fist as she talks.
âBut you didnât,â I say. Just to make sure, I ask, âRight?â
She sighs. âNo, I didnât . But itâs been such a sucky day.â
âI know,â Delia says, pulling strands of hair from her ponytail. Her skin may not be smoother, but since she and Mandy went shopping, itâs a lot more even-toned. Not that it seems to matter at this moment. Sheâs so upset, she hasnât taken a bite of her soyburger.
âWant to know what happened to me?â She glances around at all of us. âTamberlin kept calling my name in third period. I tried to ignore her, but it got really annoying, and everyone else started poking me and calling me like they thought I couldnât hear her. So I finally turn around, and she gasps and makes this face like sheâs about to throw up, and tells me thanks, and says that looking at my faceââher voice cracksââworks a whole lot better than the appetite suppressants sheâs been taking.â
I wince. Then I give her a shoulder-hug. âIâm sorry, Dee. Itâll get better.â
âYeah, Delia,â Phoebe adds.
âI just want toââMandy holds up her fistââpummel her. Pummel them all.â
âIâm sure your day wasnât worse than mine,â Joey says, unwrapping a Ding Dong and stuffing it into his face. He talks through a full mouth. âI was copying the math equations from the board when Danny Pritchard just stole my pencil from me.â
âAnd?â Phoebe asks, removing the crust from her turkey sandwich. âSo what did you do?â
âNothing,â he says. âI just sat there looking like a total wuss, doing absolutely nothing. He laughed in my face.â He picks up the wrapper and smells it. âThis ignoring thing blows .â
âYou mean you just sat there without writing anything for the entire class?â I ask.
âWell, Erin Monroe ended up giving me a pen. Except it was stupid. It was one of those pens with the big flowery thing at the end.â
In popularity rankings, Erin Monroe is no school celebrity, but sheâs not a total Marcie either. âSo someone bailed you out,â I say. âThatâs a good sign.â
âWhatever,â he says with a shrug, fishing into his lunch bag for another treat. âI just think this is stupid.â He pulls out a package of baby carrots and makes a face. âNo idea what my mom was thinking here,â he says, and then grabs my banana, which is