Finding Harmony by Leona Norwell

eager to hear what she has to say.
     
    “Why?”
     
    “Why what?”
     
    She looks at me like I was stupid for not knowing what she was talking about, her eyebrows wrinkling together.
     
    “Why her? Trey, why are you with her?”
     
    Because she was my drug dealer and I couldn’t get enough.
     
    “You don’t love her… not once have you looked at her the way you used to look at me, the way I know you’d still like to look at me…”
     
    She was completely right. She knew me too well.
     
    “I’m going to lay myself bare for you, Trey because I can’t take any more of these stupid games, I can’t pretend like nothing’s wrong and that I’m cool with this whole situation any longer because it’s all seriously messed up”.
    I listen to her attentively. She was so cute when she was angry, the way she scrunched her nose up with frustration and emphasized the words she wanted to make sure I heard.
     
    “I love you, I’ve always loved you, I always will… I wish that wasn’t the case because it’d be a lot easier loving someone else right now but we can’t pick and choose who we fall in love with, and I know that underneath this whole façade you’re putting on to the world, the real you is still in there, begging for release”.
     
    “Look, Harmony, I appreciate what you’ve been trying to do but it’s complicated-“
     
    “That’s the thing though, Trey, it’s not complicated at all, you’re only making it seem that way”.
     
    She hesitates, sighing out in frustration.
     
    “I know more about you and you’re antics than you’d care to believe and it honestly doesn’t bother me, we can work around it… I know you’re on drugs and I know that psycho bitch back there is your dealer… I just don’t know why you’re still doing it, why you’re still hurting yourself?”
     
    I lower my head to the floor. Freddy had been right, she did still think we had a chance, how the hell could I make her see that things between us could never be the way they once were?
     
    “Harmony, I’ve done things-“
     
    “Yeah and so have I… Trey, we’ve both changed but things don’t have to be like this, I don’t understand why you’re making it hard for yourself when it would be so easy to turn this whole mess around.”
     
    I loved Harmony for this personality trait of hers. No matter how far gone something or someone was, she never gave up, she refused to believe that she couldn’t make things better, she refused to accept defeat.
     
    “I want to, I just…”
     
    She moves closer to me, her sweet scent intoxicating my airwaves. She places her hands firmly on my chest, demanding me to look at her, demanding answers from me.
     
    “Please, let me in, open up to me…”
     
    Something inside me clicked when I took in her deep, pleading eyes. I couldn’t reject her anymore; I couldn’t turn down the level of love and adoration she was offering me.
     
    I needed her.
     
    I snake my arms around her waist, pulling her as close to me as possible, close enough to feel her heart beating against my chest. Her fingers reach up and clasp around my neck. I trace her jaw line tentatively before sending my lips crashing against hers. Her mouth was so soft, so moist; I could spend the rest of eternity kissing her. Our tongues delve into each other’s mouths, fighting for dominance before we have to pull away to catch our breaths.
     
    She smiles up at me, her eyes gleaming and sparkling as the snow starts gently falling around us.
     
    I was hers completely and no one else’s. I always would belong to her.
     
    “Come on, let’s go home”.
                   
     
     
     
     
     
     
    Chapter Ten
                   
     
                  We lay cuddled on the couch, Trey’s arms wrapped tightly around me, my head resting in the crook of his neck. It was so perfect it was almost hard to believe how quickly we’d ended up here, back at my apartment. If I’d